Post by Del on Oct 12, 2010 1:49:35 GMT -5
Well, my 4 1/2 month tour of California comes to a close. Since I've been in California I haven't been in a stable living situation, but I've learned what it means to be stable within oneself.
I've not been able to acquire work, no matter the industry, but I have been able to focus on MY work.
I've been supported financially by my family and am quite tired of that situation. I know what it's like to have financial stability [Korea showed me that], yet at the same time, I know what it means to have a source of financial income that will support me in the process.
Hmm, the Universe doesn't pick which is good or bad, it simply gives. So my wording on the financial independence has to get better.
What else...
I've established contacts on the Central Coast of California that are support of what I'm doing. So much so that everyone was willing to go out of their way to help me. I understand what compassion is.
I understand what it means to have a balance between giving and receiving.
Having your voice.
Relationships - open and monogamous [one of my new found contacts told me all about her experiences with that. Pretty insightful].
And peoples perceptions will be what they are. The most important thing is how one reacts to it.
Emotions and their lessons - they take us into our body, yet it is up to us to decide on whether or not we'll allow such a force to be in control.
Contemplation.
Understanding my own power to a much greater degree - I can choose to participate in anything. Even not participating is a choice.
Like this moment: I can choose to stay in California and try to make this astrocartography reading work [with no additional guidance from any external source]; I can accept returning to NYC; I can stay in San Francisco and try to make things work.
At this point, I will be returning to NYC. Now my concern is how it will pan out. If it is said that I am to be on foreign soil, what is the how? If I am to be working with youths, how? My mother, in her concern and worry [by right as a mother would] she decided to have a reading done for my benefit, and teaching youths is what I should be doing and being on foreign soil will bring blessings. Also that I should move in life with a plan and not fleeting around like a butterfly. So that's where the above statement came from.
I find it fascinating at how a cultural tradition doesn't support fleeting around, while others support going with the flow. Maybe the misconception is this: Fleeting about without a plan VS fleeting about with a plan.
In this instance, I did have a plan, but it didn't work; and when that one didn't work, I didn't have a plan. I just allowed things to unfold as it did, and I learned a lot from that too.
I have yet to understand this riddle...as with all Oracles, they speak in riddles far greater than my own.
But I do have a choice, I can say no, and stay in Cali where it's not working.
Well, I think I'll give it a shot...I'll give her suggestion a shot. Not out of spite, but simply because i do agree on two of her points: staying in a home where I don't have to worry about moving anytime soon, and being fed without concern. I just won't like the weather....>.< It's going to get cold soon.
A roof and nourishment trumps the shame, jealousy, and resentment that can arise if I don't go back East.
While at the same time, I don't intend to stay in NY, and in the very least my mother supports me on that tidbit.
So now....what do I do? I intend to ask the Oracle to explain itself. A pointer and a hint will do.
Del
I've not been able to acquire work, no matter the industry, but I have been able to focus on MY work.
I've been supported financially by my family and am quite tired of that situation. I know what it's like to have financial stability [Korea showed me that], yet at the same time, I know what it means to have a source of financial income that will support me in the process.
Hmm, the Universe doesn't pick which is good or bad, it simply gives. So my wording on the financial independence has to get better.
What else...
I've established contacts on the Central Coast of California that are support of what I'm doing. So much so that everyone was willing to go out of their way to help me. I understand what compassion is.
I understand what it means to have a balance between giving and receiving.
Having your voice.
Relationships - open and monogamous [one of my new found contacts told me all about her experiences with that. Pretty insightful].
And peoples perceptions will be what they are. The most important thing is how one reacts to it.
Emotions and their lessons - they take us into our body, yet it is up to us to decide on whether or not we'll allow such a force to be in control.
Contemplation.
Understanding my own power to a much greater degree - I can choose to participate in anything. Even not participating is a choice.
Like this moment: I can choose to stay in California and try to make this astrocartography reading work [with no additional guidance from any external source]; I can accept returning to NYC; I can stay in San Francisco and try to make things work.
At this point, I will be returning to NYC. Now my concern is how it will pan out. If it is said that I am to be on foreign soil, what is the how? If I am to be working with youths, how? My mother, in her concern and worry [by right as a mother would] she decided to have a reading done for my benefit, and teaching youths is what I should be doing and being on foreign soil will bring blessings. Also that I should move in life with a plan and not fleeting around like a butterfly. So that's where the above statement came from.
I find it fascinating at how a cultural tradition doesn't support fleeting around, while others support going with the flow. Maybe the misconception is this: Fleeting about without a plan VS fleeting about with a plan.
In this instance, I did have a plan, but it didn't work; and when that one didn't work, I didn't have a plan. I just allowed things to unfold as it did, and I learned a lot from that too.
I have yet to understand this riddle...as with all Oracles, they speak in riddles far greater than my own.
But I do have a choice, I can say no, and stay in Cali where it's not working.
Well, I think I'll give it a shot...I'll give her suggestion a shot. Not out of spite, but simply because i do agree on two of her points: staying in a home where I don't have to worry about moving anytime soon, and being fed without concern. I just won't like the weather....>.< It's going to get cold soon.
A roof and nourishment trumps the shame, jealousy, and resentment that can arise if I don't go back East.
While at the same time, I don't intend to stay in NY, and in the very least my mother supports me on that tidbit.
So now....what do I do? I intend to ask the Oracle to explain itself. A pointer and a hint will do.
Del