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Post by Del on Jul 11, 2009 10:27:14 GMT -5
I'm currently located in South Korea, surrounded by nature, in a small city, in the most rural province of South Korea.
So technically speaking, I'm right in the middle of wild and raw power. Nature is like that.
So I will climb one of the mountains on Monday [it is currently 12:26 AM, Sunday, July 12 where I am] and ask this question: Why am I here in Korea?
And I am asking you guys as well.
Before I got here, I was told that my purpose for coming to Korea isn't to teach English like everyone else. Teaching is my cover up. How nice; but I don't know why I am here.
There are two people here that this question is mainly directed at, BUT I am inviting everyone to explore this question by way of creative exploration. Be yourself, find a creative modality and explore this question. You can either PM what you've discovered, or you can post it in response.
I already have an idea as to why, but it feels so farfetched, unrealistic and something a child would conjour to tell.
I also want to test something; may the heavens forgive me for going this far.
Del
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Post by KG on Jul 11, 2009 13:45:20 GMT -5
You are there to do energy work. I know that much for sure. I could specualte on how your energy might impact the current political situation, and/or the social and cultural changes that South Korea is facing, but really... in both cases... anything you could do energicly would help... couldn't hurt. ;D
You are also there to learn and grow as a person. It is not a situation where you are only the teacher and not also the student. We are ALL, always students of life, first and formost. There is no one you cannot learn from, but the more different from you a person is, the more you can learn from them. You are there for the experience, and your own benefit of knowledge as well as to benefit others. I know that much too.
I think you need exposure to truely eastern energies, and Korea needs exposure to your energies. It would be nice if you could bring about peace between North and South Korea, but if not, at least MAYBE they won't blow each other up while you are there. LOL
Kim
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Post by Wunderkind on Jul 11, 2009 18:37:13 GMT -5
From the mouth of babes and sucklings? Maybe a child's story isn't the worst thing to hold as the truth.
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Post by Del on Jul 12, 2009 9:07:47 GMT -5
You are there to do energy work. I know that much for sure. I could specualte on how your energy might impact the current political situation, and/or the social and cultural changes that South Korea is facing, but really... in both cases... anything you could do energicly would help... couldn't hurt. ;D I'm guessing that's through dance? People being exposed to me is a good experience; already I have seen many misconceived views of America slightly changed because of how and who I am. That's a good thing. This is true no matter where I go, and true for anyone else for that mater. Beyond that basic point, is what I am searching for. Exposure, I think is a true point and statement. It's been a reciprocal relationship - I'd tap into the eastern energies, and the eastern flow of things would explore me as an entity. That's true, as I've been able to discern, part of why I am here. The bit between North and South...that's something I couldn't help but laugh about. I wouldn't have the slightest clue as to how to go about doing that...and am sure that's not my place. Do me a big favor Kim, ask Sarah. A taboo for this year, within the IFA tradition, is ignoring the youth. So, as Mem has mentioned, out of the mouth of babes, words of wisdom should not be ignored. Be it metaphorically or literally, the words of the youth should not be ignored this year. What does Sarah have to say?
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Post by Del on Jul 12, 2009 9:12:46 GMT -5
From the mouth of babes and sucklings? Maybe a child's story isn't the worst thing to hold as the truth. That's the thing, Mem, I don't disagree with what yo're saying. I can't simply ask a child here because of the language barrier, so I am asking from where I know to ask. Any ideas come to mind, Mem?
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Post by stonerwolf on Jul 12, 2009 15:33:37 GMT -5
in any situation, no matter where you are or what you are doing, you are always there to, at the very least, LEARN.
i've learned a LOT in the last month, and it jsut keeps coming, and confirming things i already know, and things i have always suspected.
Always beware and be aware, and the answer will come to you when you need to know it.
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Post by Del on Jul 12, 2009 18:55:26 GMT -5
in any situation, no matter where you are or what you are doing, you are always there to, at the very least, LEARN. i've learned a LOT in the last month, and it jsut keeps coming, and confirming things i already know, and things i have always suspected. Well duh...that's a given. I too have learned a lot in the past three and a half months I've been here; and as with all lessons, there comes a time to apply what you've learned. I'm not saying I've learned everything I've needed to, but I've learned enough to move forward...but to what? That's what I'm utterly confused about. I recently ran into a problem with the coordinator for the program I am in, for the city I am living in. He's a real smooth talker, and I found that to be unnerving and dangerous. I went into his office, open to suggestion, as usual, but with a clear head as to why I was in the office, and ended up leaving the office feeling utterly confused and lost; as if everything he said mattered and nothing else mattered, my thoughts didn't matter, my purpose didn't matter, I didn't matter. Only his will mattered. I took a nap afterward and dreamt of being attacked by a giant moth sent by him. In this dream I was in the very same building I'd just left, and the moth was to kill me if I left the building, but was meant to subdue me and prevent me from leaving the building [this is the Gimcheon Office of Education Building]. There was a little girl trapped inside the building as well and she was hiding from the moth too. If she left of her own will, the moth was to kill her as well, and the moth was sent by the very same man I'd jsut spoken to. In the end I killed the moth as I left the building and had a much clearer sense of my path. I don't know, maybe it's a precursor of what's to come in the near future; maybe I have to leave a certain structure in order for me to continue on my path, but every since I left that meeting, I've been so lost and trying to regain that sense I once had. That's why I am asking everyone I know - why am I here? Yeah, thanks to the giant moth that tried to kill me, I am well aware, yet at a loss...
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Post by KG on Jul 13, 2009 10:10:31 GMT -5
I asked Sarah, but it may not be what you want to hear. She says you are there to help others, and keep them safe, but there is a limit to how long you can do that. Political forces, and even some sort of bio-hazzard are in the future there. She forsees sickness of some type.
Sarah says you should leave as soon as possible without being irresponsible. She says you should fulfill your obligation for the school term if you must, and then either get a transfer to Japan or back to the States. She says you are in danger. Not right now, but soon. She said Japan would be safe... even China or maybe some other country... She mentioned Toko she's worried about you being in Korea, because her sense of the future is that something bad is coming, but not immediately... just soon. She thinks you should get out gracefully but ASAP.
Now Sarah is a very cautious person. Plus she has made some very dire future predictions, so take this with a grain of salt if you like, but that is what she says.
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Post by Wunderkind on Jul 13, 2009 13:43:25 GMT -5
From the mouth of babes and sucklings? Maybe a child's story isn't the worst thing to hold as the truth. That's the thing, Mem, I don't disagree with what yo're saying. I can't simply ask a child here because of the language barrier, so I am asking from where I know to ask. Any ideas come to mind, Mem? Ah, I believe you misunderstood me. Not that it matters now because it appears I misunderstood your original post to begin with, haha! My post about babes was namely in response to this: I already have an idea as to why, but it feels so farfetched, unrealistic and something a child would conjour to tell. But now I see you'd rather my opinion on the matter as opposed to telling you to listen your more "over the top" self. Hm. I would say can you find anything in common with the things you've learned? Do they lean towards any one task? What exactly have you learned? If you don't mind my prying, maybe there's a common factor in your lessons that can point to where you need to place your feet next.
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Post by stonerwolf on Jul 13, 2009 13:45:11 GMT -5
... giant moth? KILL you? shoot, swat it and eat it!! haha i dunno about giant moths, but the general idea, which seems to work wonders, for me at least, is to constantly test your awareness...
from my experiences, it's the little things that no one notices that really make the difference.
maybe you're jsut there to learn one tiny little thing that will grow into something huge at a later date.
i never thought some of the quirky things i knew would come in handy, but lo, and behold, one month of homelessness has drastically changed my outlook on life, for the better actually.
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Post by Del on Jul 14, 2009 0:26:37 GMT -5
Ah, I believe you misunderstood me. Not that it matters now because it appears I misunderstood your original post to begin with, haha! Meh..it doesn't matter. [/quote]Nope...it's not that I'd rather hear your opinion instead of my 'over the top self'...it's just that I've been getting a lot of mixed messages: some from my higher self, subconscious, and emotional desires. I'm having a hard time sifting through all of it. My dreams are very unclear and I can't remember most of them...mainly because I'm not getting enough sleep... BUT, here's what I've learned: Patience [and still learning about it], the power of nature and creation, many Koreans are ignorant and have misconceived notions about Americans [it's always the Americans...what gives?], my time here is limited, there's a conflicting gap amongst the young and old, female and male, the most simplest thing to me is a trip around the world for the children, how being 'human' isn't even a concept to Koreans [especially male koreans], nature is very patient with her inhabitant here but they have forgotten their origin, YET it's in their subconscious-i can see it. Any common theme or thing? What i feel is I need to be here for the experience, but I cannot stay [as I had planned to for another year]; the distinct separation between man and nature, the connection between man and nature; the importance of expereincing nature here in the East as opposed to in the West [my favorite part of being here above anything else!!!] Above all Mem, sometimes I need to engage in conversation with other people to help the process. One cannot do it alone. If that were the case, one would exist alone. Thanks a bunch! Del
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Post by Del on Jul 14, 2009 0:50:02 GMT -5
I asked Sarah, but it may not be what you want to hear. She says you are there to help others, and keep them safe, but there is a limit to how long you can do that. Political forces, and even some sort of bio-hazard are in the future there. She foresees sickness of some type. It's never what one wants to hear, yet what one should be made aware of because it's how the universe deems it. I'm not surprised at what I am reading for two reasons: One- this was determined in my Natal Chart by an astrologer and by my own reading of my chart [the sickness and helping others]. I knew I have been helping others [we all help others in growth actually, however odd the experience may be], in the simplest ways, but felt that there was more going on beneath the surface and I wanted to know what. TWO- the danger. This was also seen in my chart and by my self study of the planets and the retrogrades that are in affect, as well as the events that have happened while at work [the conflict with my co-teacher]. The move, my having to move, is either by cause of health or the political situation. I have yet to witness which. I'd considered moving to Jeju island because it's the southern most part of Korea. But it's just my fantasy and emotional desire to go, not a destination for my higher purpose. Now, when I first arrived here in Korea, and finally settled in, two locations came up for me: Jeju island and Kyoto, Japan. I will be vacationing in Jeju island, so that part of what came up will be fulfilled. Now if I have to leave Korea sooner than expected or in March [the end of my contract here in Korea] then I am going to assume Kyoto, Japan [or Japan in general] is where I need to go next. I'll take the Natal Chart interpretation with a grain of salt if i am to take her words as a grain of salt as well. But if TWO people are practically saying the same exact thing, by two different means of information, then I don't need a 'third times a charm' to determine if it's going to happen or not.What I wanted to see is how interconnected we as human beings really are, no matter where we are located; and how powerful that conection can be; how this universal consciousness thing works, and I think I've found my answer. Another thing i wanted to test: my intuition. Being here has strengthened it ten fold. Being as I am, i like to pick and pry at things to test its strength [sometimes it's a bad thing to do]. If it is unwise to take an action or if it will not benefit me to take an action, I will go through all sorts of inner checkpoints and confirmations, which will manifest itself externally in many different ways, which will let me know that it's not ging to work. My problem: trying to force the issue when I think it's a good idea. If it's the opposite [beneficial] then it will fall into place and I can feel it working internally and externally. I have been sidetracked by the education office and I have been trying to get back on track, so I asked you guys for help. You know what [this is probably the longest post ever], even a tree told me I was going to leave soon. I just thought it meant I'm going to actually get to go to Jeju island to live for another year, but I guess it's beyond that. Perhaps my feeling lost has to do with my nutrients drying up and purpose for being here coming to an end? Del
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Post by KG on Jul 15, 2009 13:41:59 GMT -5
You should definitely leave... see your PMs for the third vote you say you don't need, but yes third time IS a charm, and a real reason, so yes... and I must say I feel relieved that you have decided to leave... and only feel that March is a long time away. I hope that will be safe. IDK... Glad you are going to move.
Kim
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Post by Del on Jul 16, 2009 1:00:27 GMT -5
You should definitely leave... see your PMs for the third vote you say you don't need, but yes third time IS a charm, and a real reason, so yes... and I must say I feel relieved that you have decided to leave... and only feel that March is a long time away. I hope that will be safe. IDK... Glad you are going to move. Kim Well... Funny how things change. I now see why many people fear it. Change disrupts that steady rock of calmness and serenity. I've read both messages and I'll reply to them both. I can only say, now I must be open to receive a location, if the second choice is truly NOT a good place despite what is happening and going to happen. The States is, seemingly, out of the question. Like I said, I must work towards receiving confirmation of the next location. Thanks guys. Del
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Post by Del on Jul 16, 2009 21:58:50 GMT -5
I'm at work at the moment so I it's hard to post a map [most of the page I posted the photo on is in Korean so I don't know what to click to provide a link]; but I looked over a world Atlas, an atlas of Asia, and specifically Japan. The world atlas: I get scattered readings. I suppose I should be travelling, evetnaully, but for the next definitive move, I get Asia. Asian atlas: I thought about going to Bali [Indonesia] or Malaysia because of the Arts, but in doing so I would be forgetting my purpose, so those two countries don't resonate with me at this time. I've always wanted to go to India, but at this time, it's not resonating. I feel bot positive and not so positive energy looing at hte Asian Atlas, and it's mainly coming from N.K., Russia, and some parts of China; there are parts that will not benefit me now i went within the year. cid-0dadeb353ba0faee.skydrive.live.com/self.aspx/Public/Asia%20modified.emf Japan Atlas: Not all of Japan has a nice feeling to it [no reason for me to go to those parts] as far as purpose. Will I gain experience, yes of course; that happens anywhere. But to satisfy the major stuff, not all parts of Japan are necessary, or even suggested. The area that has a strong 'ping' to it is the Middle of the coutry...mainly Nagoya. It's okay for me to visit Fukuoka, there's probably something there I could use, but Nagoya rings nicely. Part of my Oriental travel is the connection to the Eastern Energy-or to do Energy work directly from the source. The other part is for my mission/purpose. Here's the url for the map: cid-0dadeb353ba0faee.skydrive.live.com/self.aspx/Public/Japan%20modified.emfSpeaking of mission: yesterday I realized what it was for Korea!!!! I visited a rural school that I will be at for one week for English Camp and as soon as I stepped out of the car with my overly emotional temporary woman co-teacher [I've been having the worst luck with working with people lately] and toured the school, and after hearing about the 37 kids of th e school, I realized that all of my experience has led up to teaching at this school in particular. It's only for 5 days, but this is the place. I will find out more in two weeks when I go to teach. After that's accomplished, I can only imagine how things will flow. Time will probably speed up. I will head to Jeju island, which is the southern most part of Korea, for my vacation, and see what happens then. I've also stumbled upon this: www.theisf.com/history.php I have been looking for an internatinal body to start out of and branch from, soI can teach, dance, and travel with some ease. I just stumbled upon while at work and haven't had time to really research them, but, if this is a good cover for me, I can propose how I'd like to participate, get a group of artists together and do what I came here to do. Here's what I'd like to integrate into this consideration: www.globalcrossroad.com/internshipabroad.phpwww.travellersworldwide.com/work-experience.htm Not saying I'd do these particular programs [haven't had time to researchthem yet-still at work] but the idea of being able to get the practice is what I am looking at. Unhindered and open. ______ Here are three organizations that I could work out of with my traveling group of artists: www.iarf.net/2008site/YoungAdults/RFYN.htmwww.iarf.net/2008site/ContactUs.htmwww.theisf.com/contact.php www.wya.net/about/becomemember.html?catid=142Suggestions, ideas, most importantly vibes...can't be around anything that won't allow for what I have to offer. I'm not going to inquire until I get at least two people that are willing to travel with me. But this is the research I have been able to do while at work today... ___________ Instead of making new posts, I will continuously update this one . Recently added: www.internationalartsmovement.org/My point in making these updates is, to find networks for areas I can teach my talents, and travel and teach english as well as a way to survive and provide exposure to others that have no knowledge of what's going on in their world.
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