Grandpa,
Thank you for explaining all this Grandpa. With two children and five grandchildren counting on you, you really need to get free of this mess. I will help all I can, and explain all this so that you can understand more about the things you are experiencing.
It's important, first of all, that you know that negative entities are not rare or unusual. Nearly everyone has something following them around or whispering in their ear. I am sighted and have worked as a deliverance minister (Pentecostal version of an Exorcist) for many years. Believe me, we all have our "demonic" baggage.
I find it necessary to tell you that, because many people who are plagued with entities feel that there is something wrong with them that they are bothered by spirits, or need something cast out of them. Nothing could be further from the truth. We are in fact surrounded by overlapping worlds of various extra dimensional creatures. These things impact everyone to a greater or lesser extent, but most people are simply unaware.
Since I, through some strange trick of nature, was born being able to see entities I'd like to tell you what I see when I go out. I no longer go to Wal-Mart because there are more negative entities in that store than there are people. Honestly a lot of other stores are not much better, but our Wal-mart is large and there's no one to even attempt to control them there. People go in and they are miserable. Almost all of them are followed by a troop of entities. While ordinary people, quite average by all appearances, wander around in the store, their entities socialize and jump from one person to another. These things network with each other whenever their people go out in pubic. They sometimes change hosts, or attack passers by.
At other times and in other places there are angels. It seems that most people have angels around them. Usually, everyone has at least one and some people have armies of them. Angels too, network in public and notice other people who are near their people. Angels are protective, energetic, fun loving and often playful. They are not at all stuffy. Mine often clown around to cheer me up. My Gheb often tries to make others see him and then laughs after he's waved a hand in front of their face only for them to totally ignore him. Sometimes though, people do see him and then he feels so triumphant.
I did not always see angels. As a child I only saw pain bodies because they are of a lower dimension. Angels are 15 dimensional. Just as we live in a 3 dimensional world, and our appearance on this plain is 3D, they are 15D. That's why their appearance is so detailed, and also why they can pass unnoticed. Most people's eyes and brains can't process 15D objects and make sense of what they see. 15D objects can pass through 3D objects and occupy the exact same space at the same time. The same is true of most other dimensions. Passing through an angel tickles but it feels wonderful.
There are other positive entities as well, and many of them are just kind of neutral. I once saw an 80 foot dragon who was guarding a karate studio. He was extremely positive, despite his fearsome appearance. I've also noticed pixies, fairies and other small entities and these are generally positive. Don't let their small size fool you either. These entities are very powerful and capable of protective magic. Pixies can often be found in our China hutches. They are generally nomadic but find themselves attracted to glass and crystal. Fairy villages can be found in nature and also near objects that have been used for positive ceremonial magic.
I find it easier to talk to you about the rest of this, because of your Christian beliefs. I too am Christian, although in reality I feel there is a connection between all positive belief systems. All religion is just an attempt to understand and explain the phenomenon of the life we experience. While all religions are by nature flawed in that no one can fully understand the universe, it helps that we likely understand it in a similar way. We do have the words of Christ to help clarify our position, and the powerful blood of Christ and Name of Jesus to use as a weapon to protect us when we are attacked.
Yes, there are demons, serpents and shades and powers of darkness, but we are more than Conquerors though Christ Jesus. At the same time though, we must pick our battles. I must not go into Wal-Mart and cast out all these pain bodies. It is not my place. If I had the permission of the owner or even the manager, I could. If I were an employee of theirs I'd have some authority, but as it is, it's simply not my responsibility. Even negative entities have rights in this universe and although I could probably bully most of them into a temporary retreat, the effort would be useless, very temporary and hardly worth the energy I'd expend in the effort.
Similarly, a wanted pain body, egrigore or other entity cannot be removed from a person. It might run away from me, but as soon as I leave it comes back because the host wants it, needs it, or has become so involved with it that they are 'addicted' to its energy and companionship. I believe Jesus was telling us that when he said that if we cast out demons and do not change the person, and fill that space with the love of God, then the demon will not only return but bring more friends when he does return.
I am telling you this because before you accept the fact that you do have power over demons, pain bodies and etc. You do have to understand the limitations of your power. You cannot for example cast out demons from people who like their demons. You can bind spirits impacting loved ones, and prevent them from doing harm, by praying that they be bound every day, but you cannot cast them out. It will only worsen the situation.
One thing I have also learned, in my old age, after my over-zealous youth, is that sometimes entities, even very dark seeming entities, are benign or even beneficial to the person they inhabit. I've found that sometimes, an entity that would normally be a neg, will feel compassion toward a lonely, frightened or abused child. All sorts of entities will come to the aid of children. Both angels and demons feel compelled to answer their pitiful pleas for help. I suppose no one is all bad, even negative entities.
Within a human mind, such entities taken in during childhood trauma, will usually do their very best to protect, assist and promote the well being of their host. They can also learn to be compassionate toward others and exhibit a desire to be beneficial to family members, community and even to society overall. In general, this symbiotic relationship between entity and host should not be tampered with, unless it becomes very destructive, and it rarely does. This is what I meant when I said that not all entities are bad.
Because of the nature of the child's developing mind, this being can become entangled within the child's psyche. Then he cannot break free without doing worse harm to both host and entity. One must use great care in dealing with these types of situations. Usually it is best, to leave these things. They can be naturally benevolent beings or beings made benevolent by the circumstances and the influence of a child's mind.
I do not THINK this is the case with you. I honestly don't know, but I can tell you that I had a powerful psychic link with a boy who was like a brother when I was a child. He was always a part of me. When he passed, some part of him transmigrated into me as a walk in. We've shared this body ever since. Because of this I have researched the subject extensively. I have met people with all sorts of entities trapped inside them. Angels, Demons, Shades, Vampires.... whatever that was about...
Usually they do more good than harm, despite their previous nature. They are always fiercely loyal to their host.
Not all entities that interact with children are benevolent though. Again egrigores and pain bodies are the number one offenders. Entities that have real spirits and souls, IE human ghosts, angels and even fallen angels when acting as individuals, are more likely to try to help kids than hurt them, but pain bodies and dark energy forces such as fear based forces are harmful to anyone in their path. It's an energy thing.
The bible has a caution to exorcists, "Lay hands on no man suddenly." This is for the protection of the patient as it is for the practitioner." It is a warning to know what you are doing, before interfering in someone else's psyche. Deciding what stays and what goes without full knowledge is very dangerous in some cases. Be careful who you listen to and especially whom you let touch you to deal with entities. I don't think this is malevolence on any practitioners' part, but it could be a case of too many cooks spoiling the soup, or a touch of over zealousness. I used to be quite over zealous myself, but have learned to be more prudent.
It sounds like you are listening to everyone except your own heart. What do YOU feel?
Reptilians
I can tell you that reptilians tend to be cold and unfeeling, like someone looking at bugs or a scientist with no empathy for lab rats. In general they lack empathy for humanity because they feel we are so far beneath them. I hope no one is offended by that, but that's the emotion I pull from them... cold indifference to any suffering they observe or even cause. They are rarely entangled in human affairs though, and are almost completely unemotional. You should be able to differentiate between them and pain bodies which are comprised of pure emotion.
In addition, I'd like to point out there is a place in the human brain that is purely reptilian. It is actually called the reptilian mind or the primitive brain. It is there, physically in the back of your head. It has no emotion and thus functions when other, more sophisticated parts of our mind are completely overwhelmed. It only does our basic survival functions. It's a part of us and there is much of it that takes over in survival situations, and deep grief too it seems to me. That could be what they are sensing, basic survival in effect in the overwhelmed to the point of shut down human mind... not an entity. It's odd vibe could be more developed in you, due to your experiences and it could fool some practitioners.
Yes, as I said, too many cooks and not enough understanding of the underlying principles of your soup. I've seen this happen with people going to too many doctors.
OK... so yes, I understand this. Sometimes a blessing can become a curse if energy is counter to your goals and life force. You're energy might be counter to the spirits that he finds healing. On the other hand, it could also be like when you keep going to different doctors and they are all giving you pills... oh, don't take these, take these instead. Then the patients mess up and take both and nearly kill themselves. Just as stopping some medications mid stream can cause withdrawal, stopping whatever the other practitioner sent could cause problems. Likely the healing spirit was ordered to help and feels he's been attacked.
I imagine you are completely worn out... Here is my best advice. Choose only one practitioner to actually DO things to you. Other than that all other astral, psychic or physical contact with practitioners trying to help you needs to stop.
Choose only one practitioner who is definitely not a charlatan or doing this for money, not that I necessarily think your practitioners are, but make sure this ONE guy is someone you trust implicitly. Also make sure that whatever tradition they follow is one you agree with completely and are comfortable with.
NOW! Consider that you have only two doctors, your one trusted practitioner and your own heart and common sense. Decide who to trust, trust them implicitly and don't go around to other doctors. You've gotten too much "help." Now that doesn't mean that others cannot pray for you but don't go allowing others to sort out your psyche, lay hands on you or do psychic surgery until this resolves itself.
In general, I don't think your practitioners are bad, or mean harm, only that just as medical doctors often do, they are giving conflicting treatments that have overwhelmed your system.
Yes, well I imagine they are at least a distraction, but this is just too confusing.... too much input. That's what you are experiencing.
"Draw nigh to God and he will draw nigh to you. Resist the devil and he will flee from you." It is really that simple. You really don't need anything else. Put your faith in God and stop seeking out assorted practitioners.
I highly recommend that you do at least a bit of this. I know you must be busy already, but if you can, get out and get involved with people who need help instead of being the patient. Take care of your kids and your grand kids and reach out to others whenever you have time.
I am absolutely sure that you will be far better off with one trusted practitioner or at most a team that work together routinely, than seeing a lot of unrelated practitioners from different traditions and styles. That's just a recipe for disaster. You are getting the psychic equivalent of ten different types of blood pressure medication and twenty different pain killers. It's dangerous.
I hope this helps. If you decide to confront some spirits yourself, message me before hand with the details. I can advise, but I don't think you need any more practitioners actually doing things to you or with you psychically or astrally. Just pick one guy to trust with all your psychic healing needs. Resist the devil yourself by changing your energy to be more positive and building a happy environment inside and out. Then see how you feel. In the meantime continue your life and work as best you can, pray and study the bible. Learn all you can about your situation and don't take any more help from strange practitioners.
I hope things get better. Keep posting and let me know how things are going.
Kim