Post by KG on May 13, 2008 8:53:08 GMT -5
Personal Stuff
SB messaged me wanting to know how to clean an object. I thought I would post this to all of you. Her question, the way it was worded, reminded me that I needed to ground, and clean myself. I have been very busy, and not on the board a lot, but I think the other reason I have been away is that I have been sad, and I didnt' want that sadness to seep out onto you all. I am down and out, and I have let myself wallow in it and feel helpless. I had a sucky mother's day, and that was my choice. I felt awful and I hated every minute of it. It felt like a lie. I have not made my children happy, despite my efforts, it wasn't enough, and they don't see the benefits of my efforts. I tried, but maybe not always hard enough. I have of course succeeded in some ways. They are good kids, all, including my on line kids. Everyone is special and unique, and they are all improving, and growing every day. I also have to admit though that I have run slack. I allowed myself to be drained of energy, and fell into worry and sorrow much more than I should have. I have faith, but my faith in them, wavered at times, and my faith in God, also wavered, obviously, though I wasn't aware of it. I have stuck stubornly to my last instructions, and did not seek new ones. Frankly I still haven't.
I haven't gotten new instructions... except from my family, and those... well I don't know till I ground, but lets just say that not everything I heard from my people made me happy. There is no consensis in my mind, or my household, and overall I like some of the plan, but hate some of it too. In the name of peace and free will, I have to go along, but I am not happy, and I am bitterly unhappy about the way things work sometimes. I need to find peace before I can go on.
Giving advice to my friend, made me see my own need and it may be a need for some of you also. I am at an empass. I have to let go, and let things take their course. I have to stop trying to manipulate things in what I think is everyone else's best interest, because maybe it isn't, and even if it is I have no right to shove it down other people's throats, just because I feel good about it. I followed guidance, and I got a great blessing, so did my youngest, and some others like it too, but some dont' feel that way, and I have to deal with the fact that not everyone is on the same page, and so our plans have changed. I am just going to have to get out of the way, and learn to deal with what happens. Whatever that is. In short I am unhappy, and I need to find peace. I have to find a way to be myself, while letting others be themselves, and learn to love them as they grow and change into people, I hardly recognize, as the same person I was dealing with in months and years past. I realize that in dealing with children, and even with adults, people grow. Sometimes we see it as a vast improvement, like with Sarah's academics, and Bear working on his temper. Other times we see it as an individuation. A move away from us, as parents, towards an uncertain future, that we want to make certain of... and we can't always be certain of the future. IT is instinctive to want to keep our family close, and our friends, but sometimes we do have to let go... painful as that is, and let them stand or fall on their own, without us to pick them up and kiss away their hurts, and explain gravity for the millionth time. Gravity works, cause and effect work, and it is so easy to see that in the lives of others, and hard to see it in ourselves.
I am rambling but I wanted to post my reply to SB about cleaning her own sad energy out of an object. This would work for something the size of a house, or something the size of a pea. As with all cleaning practices it has to start with the self. If you aren't clean, how can you clean anything else... a lesson, I needed to re-learn myself.
Grounding and Cleaning of Objects.
Well if the object has been yours for a while, then it all kind of averages out, but if you want to clean it, then the first thing you have to do is either clean it yourself, or get someone who isn't having emotional upheavals to clean it. Getting someone else to do it, is a good option at times... especially if it is your own energy you want to get rid of.
Step 1. Clean yourself. IF you want to clean yourself it isn't as hard as it sounds. I can do that even when I am starting from miserable, and the hardest part is really wanting to... that is getting motivated enough to actually start the process. Try to think of something positive you need to accomplish. Then know that you can't do it without cleaning yourself up. Realize that you have been stuck in a rut of sadness, or anger or whatever, and honestly want out of it.
Step 2. Once you've determined that you want to get out of your state of mind, the best thing to do is go outside, and ground. Find the cleanest place you can. Somewhere that comforts you and feels safe, but at the same time is more or less clean of entities.
Step 3. Methods vary, but there are a lot of them on this site. Here is the one I use. First pray, speak to God or Jesus, or even one of the mothers, or whom ever you normally pray to who works for the white light of of heaven.
Step 4. Stand in one spot and visualize yourself as a tree, continue to pray, and think "i am a tree standing by the water, and I shall not be moved, not moved emotionally, not moved physically, not moved spiritually. I am a tree, a mighty oak, and my will is strong. Nothing shall move me but God himself, and he will feed me, then stir me in the direction that only he and he alone can control. I give myself to the source. The white light of heaven, the sun of heaven, and the spiritual world, and the physical sun is but a representation of that light. I will only bend to the will of that light, and no other shall move me. I am steadfast, and ready to feed on the light, and the waters and earthly minerals of the soil it contains.
Step 5. Continuing to think that, imagine that your feet are tree roots, pulling the waters of gaia up through your feet, The strength of the physical plain and the nourishment that comes with that, is drawing upwards. At about the same time, imagine that your upper body is a treetop, raise your hands and lift them palms up till you are comfortably standing with your hands held high above or even with the top of your head. Now visualize the palms of your hands and top of your head as leaves, doing photosenthesis. The light comes into your hands, and the top of your head feels warm, and the pure white light of heaven, is pouring his energy into you.
Step 6 Draw the energy of the light into your core, and be aware as it moves from your crown, and hands into your other chakras. First the third eye, let the light shine forth from your third eye, Then let the energy trickle down to your thoat, feel the energy hit you right in your thyorid gland, below your adam's apple, and at the centers of your colar bone. Let light emit from that to grace your speaking, now let the light flow to your heart, feel the light of heaven for a long time as it circulates through your heart chakra, let the light clean it completely then wash fully. Now imagine it hitting your other chakras, Solar plexis, umbilical, and root chakras in the same way. Now let it mix with the energy of the water and the minerals of the earth that are coming up with your feet.
Step 7. Allow the energies to flow up your spine through your will centers, which are located where your spine is. Especially right behind your heart chakra, but behind all your chakras, let it work it's way up and down, both energies mixing and flowing just like a tree uses the light, water and minerals to grow and strengthen. visualize this energy crossing and mixing and flowing within your through a system similar to veins. Allow the excess power to flow out of you for a while, as if you are shining and pouring forth rivers of living water, and beams of light.
Step 8. You can make an energy ball, between your hands. Look at it and judge it's cleanness. If you aren't satisfied with it, dismiss it and make another until you have the ability to make pure clean feeling energy balls.
Step 9. When you feel your energy is pure and light and water are streaming out of your chakras, with a lot of force and power, so that your aura is clean, and you feel powerful, then give thanks and get ready to take whatever actions you feel led to do.
As for the object(s) you want to clean, steps may vary according to how you are guided to deal with it. A simple touch and a prayer of dedication might be enough, but if it is an object that will stand a little water, then go to the kitchen and make holy water. Take a cup of water, a drop of olive oil, and any other little ingredients you like. Maybe salt, Vinegar, or blessed wine. It doesn't really matter, then bless it. Pray over it, and make it holy with your energy from the white light. Now either sprinkle, wipe with a damp cloth, or just emerse the object. Tell any negative entities to leave it, and flush your energy over it by touching it with the force of your touch flowing outward not inward towards you. Roll it across your fingertips and then your palms force good clean energy into it. If the object gives resistance, call on angels to help you. Force the negative energy out of it, with the power from your palms and heart chakra. Your energy will be more than enough to rid you of any negative influence.
Pray over the object, and dedicate it to the service of the lord, and of the white light. Give that object to God, or Jesus... now this part varies according to belief, but that is what I do. To me all things are God's possessions, but it doesn't hurt to remind him, remind you, and remind the object of this from time to time. Things tend to go astray when they think they belong to us, and when we think of them as belonging to anyone other than God. We are all part of God, the divine aspect.
It is good to stay grounded, but sometimes our emotional state doesn't allow us to. Our emotions make us latch on to that awful feeling of depression, anger or helplessness, which we know that God will get rid of if we speak to him, ground, and get clean. It's like the momentium of a ball rolling in the wrong direction... we tend to keep rolling in our down side emotions, when we need to pick ourselves up, Ground, and get clean. We need to move towards the positive emotions, and positive acts, with a clean heart. Sorrow and helpless feelings will disappear, but we have to want them to, and sometimes that is hard, because we know the next step is to put away our childish emotions, and do what needs to be done. What really needs to be done, will become clear once we are cleanly away from our disturbed emotions.
When we are in negative emotions, it is hard to know what to do. It is hard to be inspired to right action, and we tend to over use our manipulative little ways of acting to get our way on things we really should pray about. We are a part of God, an interconnected force some call the Divine universe, but unless we know that, feel that, and act like that, with the force of it flowing through us, then we can be tricked to work for something else entirely. Grounding should lead us to work out of courage, not fear, out of love and not anger or hatred, out of power, and not hoplessness. When we feel this way, we can work miracles, but apart from the power we can do nothing but spread our own hoplessness, fear, and anger. Grounding helps, prayer helps, being open to the positive forces of the universe helps, but overall stay positive. Don't let yourself sink into sadness.
I realize as I type this, that I need desperately to ground, and to stop hanging on to dreams that have been shattered, and to forge new plans. I too have a tendency to follow that rut of just being devistated when things don't go the way I planned, and people don't act the way I anticiapted... and things just sort of fall apart in my hands despite all good intentions. I need to ground, and find my inner strength... which really isn't my strenght at all but God's and with that I can deal with my problems. You can too.
Thanks for reminding me to ground, and clean myself SB. I love you all very much.
Kim
SB messaged me wanting to know how to clean an object. I thought I would post this to all of you. Her question, the way it was worded, reminded me that I needed to ground, and clean myself. I have been very busy, and not on the board a lot, but I think the other reason I have been away is that I have been sad, and I didnt' want that sadness to seep out onto you all. I am down and out, and I have let myself wallow in it and feel helpless. I had a sucky mother's day, and that was my choice. I felt awful and I hated every minute of it. It felt like a lie. I have not made my children happy, despite my efforts, it wasn't enough, and they don't see the benefits of my efforts. I tried, but maybe not always hard enough. I have of course succeeded in some ways. They are good kids, all, including my on line kids. Everyone is special and unique, and they are all improving, and growing every day. I also have to admit though that I have run slack. I allowed myself to be drained of energy, and fell into worry and sorrow much more than I should have. I have faith, but my faith in them, wavered at times, and my faith in God, also wavered, obviously, though I wasn't aware of it. I have stuck stubornly to my last instructions, and did not seek new ones. Frankly I still haven't.
I haven't gotten new instructions... except from my family, and those... well I don't know till I ground, but lets just say that not everything I heard from my people made me happy. There is no consensis in my mind, or my household, and overall I like some of the plan, but hate some of it too. In the name of peace and free will, I have to go along, but I am not happy, and I am bitterly unhappy about the way things work sometimes. I need to find peace before I can go on.
Giving advice to my friend, made me see my own need and it may be a need for some of you also. I am at an empass. I have to let go, and let things take their course. I have to stop trying to manipulate things in what I think is everyone else's best interest, because maybe it isn't, and even if it is I have no right to shove it down other people's throats, just because I feel good about it. I followed guidance, and I got a great blessing, so did my youngest, and some others like it too, but some dont' feel that way, and I have to deal with the fact that not everyone is on the same page, and so our plans have changed. I am just going to have to get out of the way, and learn to deal with what happens. Whatever that is. In short I am unhappy, and I need to find peace. I have to find a way to be myself, while letting others be themselves, and learn to love them as they grow and change into people, I hardly recognize, as the same person I was dealing with in months and years past. I realize that in dealing with children, and even with adults, people grow. Sometimes we see it as a vast improvement, like with Sarah's academics, and Bear working on his temper. Other times we see it as an individuation. A move away from us, as parents, towards an uncertain future, that we want to make certain of... and we can't always be certain of the future. IT is instinctive to want to keep our family close, and our friends, but sometimes we do have to let go... painful as that is, and let them stand or fall on their own, without us to pick them up and kiss away their hurts, and explain gravity for the millionth time. Gravity works, cause and effect work, and it is so easy to see that in the lives of others, and hard to see it in ourselves.
I am rambling but I wanted to post my reply to SB about cleaning her own sad energy out of an object. This would work for something the size of a house, or something the size of a pea. As with all cleaning practices it has to start with the self. If you aren't clean, how can you clean anything else... a lesson, I needed to re-learn myself.
Grounding and Cleaning of Objects.
Well if the object has been yours for a while, then it all kind of averages out, but if you want to clean it, then the first thing you have to do is either clean it yourself, or get someone who isn't having emotional upheavals to clean it. Getting someone else to do it, is a good option at times... especially if it is your own energy you want to get rid of.
Step 1. Clean yourself. IF you want to clean yourself it isn't as hard as it sounds. I can do that even when I am starting from miserable, and the hardest part is really wanting to... that is getting motivated enough to actually start the process. Try to think of something positive you need to accomplish. Then know that you can't do it without cleaning yourself up. Realize that you have been stuck in a rut of sadness, or anger or whatever, and honestly want out of it.
Step 2. Once you've determined that you want to get out of your state of mind, the best thing to do is go outside, and ground. Find the cleanest place you can. Somewhere that comforts you and feels safe, but at the same time is more or less clean of entities.
Step 3. Methods vary, but there are a lot of them on this site. Here is the one I use. First pray, speak to God or Jesus, or even one of the mothers, or whom ever you normally pray to who works for the white light of of heaven.
Step 4. Stand in one spot and visualize yourself as a tree, continue to pray, and think "i am a tree standing by the water, and I shall not be moved, not moved emotionally, not moved physically, not moved spiritually. I am a tree, a mighty oak, and my will is strong. Nothing shall move me but God himself, and he will feed me, then stir me in the direction that only he and he alone can control. I give myself to the source. The white light of heaven, the sun of heaven, and the spiritual world, and the physical sun is but a representation of that light. I will only bend to the will of that light, and no other shall move me. I am steadfast, and ready to feed on the light, and the waters and earthly minerals of the soil it contains.
Step 5. Continuing to think that, imagine that your feet are tree roots, pulling the waters of gaia up through your feet, The strength of the physical plain and the nourishment that comes with that, is drawing upwards. At about the same time, imagine that your upper body is a treetop, raise your hands and lift them palms up till you are comfortably standing with your hands held high above or even with the top of your head. Now visualize the palms of your hands and top of your head as leaves, doing photosenthesis. The light comes into your hands, and the top of your head feels warm, and the pure white light of heaven, is pouring his energy into you.
Step 6 Draw the energy of the light into your core, and be aware as it moves from your crown, and hands into your other chakras. First the third eye, let the light shine forth from your third eye, Then let the energy trickle down to your thoat, feel the energy hit you right in your thyorid gland, below your adam's apple, and at the centers of your colar bone. Let light emit from that to grace your speaking, now let the light flow to your heart, feel the light of heaven for a long time as it circulates through your heart chakra, let the light clean it completely then wash fully. Now imagine it hitting your other chakras, Solar plexis, umbilical, and root chakras in the same way. Now let it mix with the energy of the water and the minerals of the earth that are coming up with your feet.
Step 7. Allow the energies to flow up your spine through your will centers, which are located where your spine is. Especially right behind your heart chakra, but behind all your chakras, let it work it's way up and down, both energies mixing and flowing just like a tree uses the light, water and minerals to grow and strengthen. visualize this energy crossing and mixing and flowing within your through a system similar to veins. Allow the excess power to flow out of you for a while, as if you are shining and pouring forth rivers of living water, and beams of light.
Step 8. You can make an energy ball, between your hands. Look at it and judge it's cleanness. If you aren't satisfied with it, dismiss it and make another until you have the ability to make pure clean feeling energy balls.
Step 9. When you feel your energy is pure and light and water are streaming out of your chakras, with a lot of force and power, so that your aura is clean, and you feel powerful, then give thanks and get ready to take whatever actions you feel led to do.
As for the object(s) you want to clean, steps may vary according to how you are guided to deal with it. A simple touch and a prayer of dedication might be enough, but if it is an object that will stand a little water, then go to the kitchen and make holy water. Take a cup of water, a drop of olive oil, and any other little ingredients you like. Maybe salt, Vinegar, or blessed wine. It doesn't really matter, then bless it. Pray over it, and make it holy with your energy from the white light. Now either sprinkle, wipe with a damp cloth, or just emerse the object. Tell any negative entities to leave it, and flush your energy over it by touching it with the force of your touch flowing outward not inward towards you. Roll it across your fingertips and then your palms force good clean energy into it. If the object gives resistance, call on angels to help you. Force the negative energy out of it, with the power from your palms and heart chakra. Your energy will be more than enough to rid you of any negative influence.
Pray over the object, and dedicate it to the service of the lord, and of the white light. Give that object to God, or Jesus... now this part varies according to belief, but that is what I do. To me all things are God's possessions, but it doesn't hurt to remind him, remind you, and remind the object of this from time to time. Things tend to go astray when they think they belong to us, and when we think of them as belonging to anyone other than God. We are all part of God, the divine aspect.
It is good to stay grounded, but sometimes our emotional state doesn't allow us to. Our emotions make us latch on to that awful feeling of depression, anger or helplessness, which we know that God will get rid of if we speak to him, ground, and get clean. It's like the momentium of a ball rolling in the wrong direction... we tend to keep rolling in our down side emotions, when we need to pick ourselves up, Ground, and get clean. We need to move towards the positive emotions, and positive acts, with a clean heart. Sorrow and helpless feelings will disappear, but we have to want them to, and sometimes that is hard, because we know the next step is to put away our childish emotions, and do what needs to be done. What really needs to be done, will become clear once we are cleanly away from our disturbed emotions.
When we are in negative emotions, it is hard to know what to do. It is hard to be inspired to right action, and we tend to over use our manipulative little ways of acting to get our way on things we really should pray about. We are a part of God, an interconnected force some call the Divine universe, but unless we know that, feel that, and act like that, with the force of it flowing through us, then we can be tricked to work for something else entirely. Grounding should lead us to work out of courage, not fear, out of love and not anger or hatred, out of power, and not hoplessness. When we feel this way, we can work miracles, but apart from the power we can do nothing but spread our own hoplessness, fear, and anger. Grounding helps, prayer helps, being open to the positive forces of the universe helps, but overall stay positive. Don't let yourself sink into sadness.
I realize as I type this, that I need desperately to ground, and to stop hanging on to dreams that have been shattered, and to forge new plans. I too have a tendency to follow that rut of just being devistated when things don't go the way I planned, and people don't act the way I anticiapted... and things just sort of fall apart in my hands despite all good intentions. I need to ground, and find my inner strength... which really isn't my strenght at all but God's and with that I can deal with my problems. You can too.
Thanks for reminding me to ground, and clean myself SB. I love you all very much.
Kim