Is it okay to reply like this in this thread? If not you can move it if need be.
I did this once; this was before I met KG. It was hard at first to shut down, but when I did I felt wierd. Like I was missing a piece of my self that made me whole. When I returned though, that was a painful shock to my system. But it was needed. I almost pushed myself to absorb all of the information in one sitting at times and nearly caused me to be so burnt out that I almost failed my classes.
Anyway, it's helpful but hard. I felt like sharing..
"It is not enough to CONQUER. One must know how to SEDUCE." -voltaire
You have 7 years to practice, for when your child and husband enters your life space, it will be a delightful disruption, but non the less, it will be disruptive and you will need to go back to that place of aloneness.
I tend to shut down automatically, if I get an overload. This is always annoying, and upsetting to me, but it has probably saved me from going insane a couple of times, since I tend to push ahead as long as I can. When I get something I can't understand, and it starts to really bother me, I shut down. I've been in shut down mode for over a week now, and just now coming out of it a little.
There is a lot of burn out involved in this stuff. Some people realize they are burning themselves out, and they have to pull back. For me it must be a built in defense mechanism. I Don't consciously cause myself to pull back, most of the time, but I do it anyway. There have only been a few times that it was voluntary. I am as miserable as a wet cat without my abilities, and I hate being without them, but I also notice that delving too deep for too long can make you feel like you are going crazy. I get very obcessive, when I am trying to understand something. I think as uncomfortable as shutting down is it is a valuable thing. It prevents the overload, and it is possible that overload could cause mental and emotional damage. I am very thankful for shut down, even though I hate it.
you didnt mention music in your list of energy sources, but im sure you failed to list a lot
psiballs are primitive fireballs, or so i have heard, and certian martial arts either do, or used to teach how to perfect and weild psiballs as a form of self defense, at the very least, a light show could scare off an opponent
im not sure, but i think i frequently draw energy from many things, i suspect i am a channeler of sorts...
i feel a sort of tingle flow through my body momentarily, but i have never successfully controlled this... your atricle inspires me to at least try
i will be using music as my primary source, because of my hearing loss; i can create music in my head that only i can hear. but as for directing and controlling the bursts of feeling i gets from music... wish me luck
a'Lan Mandragoran: There is no more life here!!!!!! WHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?! mew
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Del: Oh a'Lan...I'm sorry about that....
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Xavrael: I can only assume that life happened, a'Lan. =]
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a'Lan Mandragoran: Glad to see that people are still alive! sorta... Just lettin people know I'm still kicking, myself. there WAS something going on back in April but I now have forgotten what it was. Meh
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KG: Didn't realize it had been so long. Yes, I am still living... it's been tough lately though. Still hanging in there. Trying to write a book... broke as usual. LOL
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KG: Help!!!! Things are not going well, and I didn't want to bring you guys down, but I really could use a bit of help from some of you wise sages I was lucky enough to meet.
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KG: Wow one problem has improved already. Anyway, I think things are a lot better... Thanks you guys.
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Del: I should...perhaps, be a bit more attentive to this site, now-a-days...
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