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Post by Kata Samoes on Dec 1, 2006 14:26:30 GMT -5
I'd ask for the opposite. Give us proof life isn't worth it to you anymore.
"We cannot teach those who will not listen."
Also, having a negative mind brings negative influences to your life. Life isn't black and white, yet you seem to go by this concept. Stop being so negative, and blessings will come your way. You may get a miracle, you may get slow progress, you may get both.
MAKE life worthwhile, and do not sit around bitching and brooding. Then it will be a better time for you.
Think positive, balance your energies, balance your mind, and balance your soul. Then, and only then, will life improve for you. Isolate yourself and use magick to set up barriers and wards to keep outside influences from making things worse.
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Post by stonerwolf on Dec 2, 2006 15:35:40 GMT -5
it's not ME. it's EVERYTHING. it's all so POINTLESS. i cant think positive, the whole of creation is so pointless, i see it is only a negative thing, where IS the positive, what is the end result? give me a reason to be positive, i have none.
i cant just magically say, "oh, life is worth it afterall.", untill i actually feel that it is!
what evergies? my mind controlls me not the other way around, i have no soul.
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Post by Kata Samoes on Dec 4, 2006 11:30:33 GMT -5
You're using scapegoats.
"It's not me, it's them."
You refuse to recognize your own problems, and always blame it on everything else.
You're a fool.
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Post by stonerwolf on Dec 4, 2006 21:33:39 GMT -5
yeah, i know it's me, i cant tolerate existing, end my being, and i have no problems, mostly cuz i wont exist anymore, but also cuz i dont want to exist period.
i dont want to be anything, existant, nonexistant, high, low, happy, sad, enraged, calm, loving, hateful, or otherwise; i dont want to be.
it is pointless.
what is the scapegoat in not wanting to participate in a pointless existance?
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Post by Kata Samoes on Dec 5, 2006 11:00:40 GMT -5
Your bias is the scapegoat, but then that will not make sense in your angst.
"Woe is me! I cannot live anymore!" says the angsty 14-year-old goth in their parent's place who will not try harder at life.
I used to be like you...then I grew up.
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Post by stonerwolf on Dec 5, 2006 15:05:20 GMT -5
ok, how about this: grow up.
you're arguing with a "14-year-old goth in their parent's place who will not try harder at life." who is now 21, and still fed up with the asinine and arbitrarily pointless existance of ALL that exists.
remove me from it all and you eliminate the problem.
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Post by Kata Samoes on Dec 6, 2006 11:32:55 GMT -5
You choose to be so negative and miserable, because you CHOOSE to only see that side.
I would think a 21-year-old would be more grown about life and not so angry, but you never seemed to have grown past anywhere from 12-15.
No one can take you seriously anymore, because you only bitch and whine. You do not do anything to change ANYTHING, because you see no point.
Yet you never walked down the road of life.
I pity you, for your mind has been trashed by dark thoughts and anger. You have destroyed yourself in every way but your life and your soul.
You are truly a human fool, no longer worth anyone's attention until you make yourself worthwhile to yourself.
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Post by stonerwolf on Dec 7, 2006 10:17:06 GMT -5
i choose to believe i need a reason, and because everything is so meningless, and i have to PICK a reason, further enforcing my belief that everything is meaningless, and because a reason inst just going to FALL into my lap, OF COURSE all i see is negativity!
and your post proves it, NO ONE gives a F**k about anyone else, because if they did, they would be more accomidating that any of you, they would be willing to do what it takes to help a person who is hopeless!
but no, you jsut go "i aint touching that with a 40 foot pole" and blame it all on me, for SEEING it that way, it's MY fault for having a bad perspective, it's MY fault that life hasnt given me a break, it's MY fault my parents met each other and concieved me.
sure, it's always my own damn fault, and that justifys you for not helpping me fix my problems.
assholes.
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Post by Xavrael on Dec 7, 2006 12:17:21 GMT -5
I wouldn't base assumptions of the intentions of people on what Kata said. Its kata. 'Nuff said.
In case you haven't noticed Stoner, people here *HAVE* been trying to talk to you. The question of What is making you so angry *HAS* been asked. Maybe not so directly but otherwise, it has been asked. And each time we TRIED to help you, You would continue on your Tirade, So NO. Don't even try to place any sort of blame on the people that were trying to give you helpful advice.
But people have limits, and you managed to touch the limit of everyone who tried to help you, So um. Pardon those of us who became assholes in light of your reoccurring issues.
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Post by stonerwolf on Dec 9, 2006 22:08:58 GMT -5
well when i ask for help, i dont mean tell me i need to help myself, i mean i need a physical person there to guide me, and show me that it is worth the efoort, something i can see, can KNOW.
i have no faith, obviousely, and i need something in my life to reinstall the childhood faith i once remembered.
everyone tells me i have to do everything all on my own, and that really hurts like a bitch, to think that no one can actually help anyone else out wuth nore than a few words of advice and no proof in the matter.
hurts like hell...
and i suppose it makes me stronger if i can learn from it, but so far i am fighting everything to no end, and i cant seem to make myself stop.
no one else can make me stop, and that just makes it that much harder...
im sorry im being so difficult, im honnestly trying to work with you, believe it or not, but in my thinking that if i question everything i will gain some more solid answers, i have only been working against everyone who has ever tried to help me.
i really want to change that, but it's something i have to do myself, and without any knowledge of how to maintain that more easily... i just gotta force myself to do things i have no knowledge of what i am actually doing, the darkness of ignorance completely consumes my brain and it never shuts up long enough to LISTEN to an answer without questioning it.
i constantly blame everything from other people to spirits to the circumstances of my life because i continue to fail to see how it is my own fault.
i need something and i dont know what, yet without it, i will never progress, or so it seems, and since it is something that cannot be just given to me, something that i must progress toward...
well it all seems real hopeless, and again, it's my own fault for thinking myself into a hopeless situation, and my own fault for not knowing how to think my way out of it, and my own fault, and my own fault...
really gets aggrivating really fast.... making it that much harder to get out...
i liked my life better whne i wasnt alive... lol this sucks.
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Post by dania on Dec 10, 2006 18:26:40 GMT -5
If you want someone physical there to help you, have you tried talking to someone who you phsyically know? I don't know how posting on a message board will help you with that, as most of us are pretty far away from you (I'm in PA) so it is impossible for us to be there physically to help you.
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Post by ~Sephity~ on Dec 10, 2006 21:02:48 GMT -5
Or try meditating and searching internally for "someone" who can help you.
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Post by stonerwolf on Dec 11, 2006 12:27:21 GMT -5
the only "people" inside me hate me... i think i will take my chances with finding people online.
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Post by ~Sephity~ on Dec 11, 2006 17:40:22 GMT -5
*shrugs* Just trying to help, hun.
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Post by stonerwolf on Dec 11, 2006 18:28:02 GMT -5
yeah... i appreciate it, but why does it seem like every piece of advice is the same?
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