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Post by a'Lan Mandragoran on Jul 22, 2012 1:31:55 GMT -5
I felt pulled, so I've come back. I don't feel a specific thing calling me... It's like I'm a spider in a web and someone tweeked the threads. It might be a part of being drunk off my ass tonight, but I don't know. Anywho... I'm alive and kicking. Just concerned about the feeling urgency and need to return here. If anyone has anything that they need my services with, let me know either in a thread or PM.
Genera status of myself: Still have fox in scull (Ash: Not that he has a choice. I'm not leaving until I'm not needed any more) Moving from St. Louis City to St. Louis County soon Mom's still nuts Looking for work again or still or something (Got fired 7 months ago from Boeing) Cheese Beer Bacon Disregard the last three items.
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Post by KG on Jul 22, 2012 22:58:38 GMT -5
Glad to hear that you still have a fox in your skull. Hi Ash! I am very glad to hear from you. Sorry about the job but things seem to be picking up so perhaps you will find another soon. Del is working on a big project and I have been feeling vaguely troubled so perhaps one or the other of us called you. Xav has been around as well. I hope that we can all gather round for whatever is going on and come up with real answers.
I think a lot of people sense that something is going on but there is no real clarity. A TV evangelist on TV just now as I was typing, as if answering my question said that spiritual people have been going through a lot more trials than usual for the past year and a half or two years. I agree, and I have heard similar things from all sorts of spiritual people. He said the answer was to pray, have faith, be thankful and to try to find joy and love in our hearts. I think he is right again, but easier said than done.
At any rate I have been trying to get a greater understanding of the problem but it just worries me when I do. I am still standing by my war on poverty, and it has led me into a spiritual confrontation with Kony of all people. As in Kony 2012... (shrugs) I would have chosen someone vastly different to fight from my own POV. The global elite, a corporation or perhaps some politician or other seems more logical to me, but Kony seems to be target of my efforts. Every time I work on it, I see him in the opposing position.
Overall things have been depressing here... multiple deaths in our extended family. Finances are a struggle, but we are staying above water. I hurt my foot a couple of months ago and it is limiting my mobility and ability to do things in the natural a lot more than I would have expected. Anyway there have been some frustrating and sad circumstances but overall we are OK here in NC.
I hope that everything goes well with your job search, Del's work and mine as well. Please stay in touch. I think the time is near when we will need to work together.
Kim
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Post by a'Lan Mandragoran on Aug 26, 2012 1:05:15 GMT -5
I've been feeling a buzz lately, the whole awareness thing... This aren't looking good on a number of fronts from where I'm sitting.
My parents are FINALLY moving out of this house. The house I live in now, that I am leaving soon, is so insainly active I've not been able to sleep in almost a year. I've moved out twice, once when I had a job and once more recently when I THOUGH I had a job in Columbia Missouri. I'm a little excited about it because we MIGHT move into a house with less spiritual presence. I'm sitting at a friend's place right now because I can't go home just yet simply becaue it's too active. I've cleansed the place and such but I's still a mess. Like a hole in the veil in my livingroom kind of thing... I'll be foxing it soon, I hope. Anyway, if there's any help I can give anyone, I'm back and probably able to offer guidance or other help as needed.
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Post by KG on Sept 1, 2012 14:43:12 GMT -5
It's great to hear from you and Ash! Yes I think people do need help, but maybe it is just hard for some to ask... but I ain't too proud. You have always been a powerful ally. What I need now though are just answers.
Yes anyone with that awareness thing is feeling it. I am not sure what it means except that there must be something we can do... else we would not feel so beat up. If we'd lost the war, and we were as totally helpless as I feel sometimes , they would not still be hammering on us so.
I wish I could consciously figure out what it is I am supposed to be doing! I am really trying to trust my instincts... I still have writers block on the book I am writing, or at least I don't like anything I have written yet.
I am still fighting with Kony in my spirit sometimes... and talking to a wealthy philanthropist lady I read about recently in my head. It's strange, but when I read about her, she started speaking to me. I guess she must be spiritually active on some level. I can only wonder if she is consciously aware. She's probably asleep during the hours I hear from her. This type of contact rarely happens with strangers. She's contacted me several times since... astrally.
I hope it's better at the new house. It always seems like there is something around, but it may be less or better in the new house.
You too huh? I have something similar... round circle in the middle of the floor... there was a dragon imprisoned under there. I finally decided to let him out. He wasn't bad after all. The hole is sealed pretty good though now and without the dragon pushing on it... well it's been more stable.
Well if you could shed some light on what is going on... why we all feel so weird and how we can make things better, I'd certainly appreciate it. Here is what I've been feeling and what others have described.
Exhaustion Feeling like I have been in a spiritual war but not remembering it. Not feeling rested after sleep Numerous astral meetings with the mother and other women, probably Sophians that I can't consciously grasp the subject of. Feeling hopeless or helpless Thoughts of suicide Feeling like there is nothing I can do while at the same time feeling compelled to do something. Inability to change the physical realm even in small ways. Sometimes I feel like a ghost if that makes any sense. Feeling of floating and being OBE without any sense of where I might be other than here. Loss of awareness of my physical surroundings and then... nothing. I am not aware of where I am either astrally or physically, but wherever I am I feel exhausted when I get back. Loosing time... hours pass that I am unaware of. Trouble paying attention. I'll start watching TV or a movie, and then realize there are blank spots where I don't remember what happened, even if I was really trying to watch. Feeling cold and detached about things I should care about. Becoming suddenly emotional about things that aren't normally that important to me. Feelings of anger towards some nameless force that I can't quite find, know, understand... Petty sort of emotions of being deprived of some small thing... I feel so sad like I am missing something. Feeling joyless and dry.. dead inside. People complain that I don't listen to them... I don't remember them saying anything or miss what they say. It's getting a little freaky... Others are complaining too... though I only went into detail on the ones I am experiencing personally.
If you have any idea what this is, please let me know. I've had some of these feelings before, but never without at least some knowledge of what I was doing other than being here. It is so frustrating.
Thanks for any help you or anyone else can shed light on this.
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