Those who are Worthy

[Del]

I've been wanting to know WHO my audience is; especially since now I know that my Dreams are my key, truth, and guide, informing me of my path.

I've finally arrived to where I feel purposeful - when I'm engaged in my craft - be it painting, drawing, dancing, or whatever else, I feel purposeful..in bliss. Yet to whom are they to be shared with? Whenever I look outwards to share, it gets daunting. I cannot water it down - it is to be revealed as it is created - authentically.

But WHOM is to see this?

It's not a matter of just revealing it; there's more to it than that. It's like, there are specific people that need to see if for a specific reason, but I don't know who or where they are.

How do I make a living from this??

So troubled, was I, that I dreamt a dream that was indeed the answer:

I was in a house, similar to the one I'm currently living in, and there were specific people there; people that were meant to be there. My cousin [not by blood] walked in through the front doors, and left them open. Vast, red double doors, they were, and I became irritable at his actions. He couldn't just leave the doors open, not at all. They could NOT be left open.

I ran towards the window and saw that there were people outside - the general public, neighbors and the like; as well as a police car with two officers in it. I turned to see a young girl walk in - a friend of my brother. She needed to use the bathroom, so I thought it okay, just for that, but she had to leave. She wasn't really welcomed in my house.

I then yelled at my cousin "Close the f@*king door!!" It startled him, because he assumed that that's what I was supposed to do, but in truth it wasn't. I stood in the massive doorway and reached out my arms, pulling them back towards my chest. This movement closed the double doors. They were huge, red, with intricate carvings on them.

Not just anyone was allowed entry. I had to make sure that the people around me were aware of that.
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So, I understand what this dream is saying - I can't allow just anyone in. Not everyone can enter my world.

If that's the case then, how In the WORLD do I make a living with what I am supposed to do?

How do I reach my audience??

Those are the questions I hope are answered tonight.... I understand the need to be discreet and selective, but really? Can you guide them to me or show me how to contact them??

[Xavrael]

Most (all) artists feel incredibly protective over their works. I think that it stems from the artist wanting that appreciation for their art, like what you want. Or sounds like what you want in any case (on my end).

I don't think you get to choose though. Or rather, the providence of selection doesn't fall on you. Don't be so eager to fall into the trap of believing that you yourself are the gatekeeper for any sort of spiritual awakening.

Or better put (don't bite my head off, sounded worse than what I'm actually meaning to say),
Put out the call.
Use your friends. Network with like-minded people. Summon.

From what I remember of summoning, the act, is setting up specific circumstances where the desired entity is the one to actually answer the summons. Not so much pulling on them per say, against their will (Though, it can be done).

Look at your variables. Whatever they are. Internet access, experience with advertising? Community Presence. Let yourself be known. Those who gravitate towards what you're wanting to share, will come. Those who aren't, won't. In the end, that's all you're really wanting anyway right? The right audience will come. So will the curious and those on the fence. Those who understand will stay.

I wish you well in your endeavor. I have faith in you.
Now, time to return to making jello shots disappear =o

[KG]

I have waited a while to answer this because... well I don't have a good answer. I am glad Xav answered first, because I like his answer, but I have sweated on this so I guess I'll give you the answer I have as well... I like the summoning idea. Plus he makes the point I had much better than I could that you can't easily control who sees this.

Perhaps you could use some kind of rune on your posters, ads and literature when the time comes. If you use the right one, it might repel the wrong crowd and attract the crowd you want??? It would have to be carefully constructed, but need not be large or even the main graphic.

An example of this is that some Christians boycotted Procter and gamble because of their old moon and stars logo... believe it or not they associate it with the black arts for some reason... also the Snapple drink bottles have a pic of an old ship, but for some reason that I don't quite grasp, many black people decided it was a slave ship and they were repelled. They complained and boycotted.

I've seen many logos, signs and other graphics that would attract some kinds of people and completely repel others. Anything that appears to be drug influenced, has gang signs or whatever attracts people who are involved in that, and repels those who want to stay away from drugs and gangs. Anything that appears to be occult will repel those who are nervous about the occult. Anything that is creative and busy will tend to repel those people who like orderly simple things.

Anything that looks interesting, complex and cool will repel some people... while clean, smart graphics like the ones used by tech and professional companies with a broad appeal... think Apple, Nationwide Insurance and G.E. are universally accepted, and not really adored by anyone. People recognize them quickly and move on without needing to study them.

So, I understand what this dream is saying - I can't allow just anyone in. Not everyone can enter my world.

If that's the case then, how In the WORLD do I make a living with what I am supposed to do?

How do I reach my audience??

Those are the questions I hope are answered tonight.... I understand the need to be discreet and selective, but really? Can you guide them to me or show me how to contact them??

Making money and limiting your audience seem like conflicting ideas to me. Yet, I do know what you mean... but how can you know the heart of a person? How can you judge? You could publicize your work on internet sites that appeal to a certain type or group, or try to find clubs and groups that could relate to the material, but not everyone who might relate to your project will belong to these kinds of groups.

I am not sure you mean worthiness? I am not sure exactly what kind of people you mean to attract. I do think that if you form a working definition for your product... a sort of description that is not a spoiler of the plot, but at least a way of explaining it, and what this is all about would help. If you explain it right, only those interested will be attracted.

I would really like to know more about what this is about myself. In general, think of the movie trailers and book jackets and reviews you have seen. Try to write one for your project. I think that most shallow people will weed themselves out by show of interest if you are clear about what it is you are doing.

Kim

[Del]

Well, thanks for taking the time to respond...

>.< The days of me being misunderstood will never end. That usually happens when there isn't enough information on the table.

My bad for not relaying ALL of the info. It's just that not ALL is ever revealed to me in one sitting.

Jul 17, 2012 16:16:21 GMT -5 Xavrael said:

Most (all) artists feel incredibly protective over their works. I think that it stems from the artist wanting that appreciation for their art, like what you want. Or sounds like what you want in any case (on my end).

"Once upon a time, in a far far away land where 'Del' lay in a deep slumber, she was so over protective of her work, that she couldn't even show it to the light of day. She kept it hidden. She so desired appreciation for it yet feared criticism [especially constructive ones]..."

Ok Xav, in the past, you would have been right. But you're Wrong. I'm not SEEKING appreciation from anyone outside of myself. I could spend hours creating, and not care if people saw it or didn't see it.

The issue I'm trying to resolve is: HOW do I make a living just being blissful?

I don't think you get to choose though. Or rather, the providence of selection doesn't fall on you.

I agree. I know I don't get to choose. I am trying to figure out where to place it so that those that need to see it, SEE it. So in a sense I am following the 'crowd' of eager artists, placing my artwork where it 'feels' comfortable to do so.

Don't be so eager to fall into the trap of believing that you yourself are the gatekeeper for any sort of spiritual awakening.

Nasty use of words. No, I don't THINK I'm the gatekeeper for any sort of spiritual awakening. I was simply asked to recreate a lineage that died out several thousand years ago. It has nothing to do with any spiritual awakening.

If I had it my way, I'd ride the Earth of all humans, or I'd just take my own life [which I attempted to do and failed].

If there is some sort of BIG DAY on the way, great! If not, great! Plainly put, I don't care about what happens to humanity. Fail or pass, I don't care. I'm only concerned about why I was placed here. I've already expressed my dislike of being here, so the Universe knows well what it is I want. I just need to be a little more patient.

SO, in the meantime, how do I 'make a living' off of being in 'Bliss'? That's my dilemma.

Or better put (don't bite my head off, sounded worse than what I'm actually meaning to say),
Put out the call.
Use your friends. Network with like-minded people. Summon.

From what I remember of summoning, the act, is setting up specific circumstances where the desired entity is the one to actually answer the summons. Not so much pulling on them per say, against their will (Though, it can be done).

Yeah, duh, I know. Already working on it...

Look at your variables. Whatever they are. Internet access, experience with advertising? Community Presence. Let yourself be known. Those who gravitate towards what you're wanting to share, will come. Those who aren't, won't. In the end, that's all you're really wanting anyway right? The right audience will come. So will the curious and those on the fence. Those who understand will stay.

Here's the thing with mingling in public - I LITERALLY get sick. I get bumped accidentally, I become SO nauseous that my body prepares itself to go into dry heaving, I get light headed and sometimes disoriented.

Maybe I need to work on shielding [or just not go out anymore, don't know]...but I can't STAND being around the general public. They make me sick...literally.

And when I say 'general public', I'm talking about the people whose mindset is set only on 'survival'. If you still don't get what I mean, I guess it cannot be helped.

I wish you well in your endeavor. I have faith in you.

Thank you

[Del]

Perhaps you could use some kind of rune on your posters, ads and literature when the time comes. If you use the right one, it might repel the wrong crowd and attract the crowd you want??? It would have to be carefully constructed, but need not be large or even the main graphic.

Simply put, if you're able to understand what the symbolism is saying, then you'll get it. If not, you just won't.
It's just a matter of getting my work out there.

I haven't fully finished the story yet BECAUSE it was just revealed to me. Now it's matter of piecing it together.

An example of this is that some Christians boycotted Procter and gamble because of their old moon and stars logo... believe it or not they associate it with the black arts for some reason... also the Snapple drink bottles have a pic of an old ship, but for some reason that I don't quite grasp, many black people decided it was a slave ship and they were repelled. They complained and boycotted.

Ok, see, that whole ship thing....I don't want to deal with people with that type of deep subliminal issue. Really? You can't get over the fact that humans have both a sunny and shadow side? I mean, what's the point of preaching healing if ya not gonna do it yourself???

Anyway, those types of people, I cannot let inside. You get me?

Anything that looks interesting, complex and cool will repel some people... while clean, smart graphics like the ones used by tech and professional companies with a broad appeal... think Apple, Nationwide Insurance and G.E. are universally accepted, and not really adored by anyone. People recognize them quickly and move on without needing to study them.

All of this is okay, if you're just wanting to get your stuff out there and simply 'make a living'.

That's not my goal. I"m okay with sitting at home [whomever's house] creating my stuff. I don't even want to own a home. That's how detached I am. So as long as I have food, a roof, and my art materials, I'm okay.

BUT, I was placed here for a reason. And it's a little more than recreating a lineage. But right NOW, it's not the time.

So what do I do in the meantime? Art.

So, I understand what this dream is saying - I can't allow just anyone in. Not everyone can enter my world.

If that's the case then, how In the WORLD do I make a living with what I am supposed to do?

How do I reach my audience??

Those are the questions I hope are answered tonight.... I understand the need to be discreet and selective, but really? Can you guide them to me or show me how to contact them??

Making money and limiting your audience seem like conflicting ideas to me. Yet, I do know what you mean... but how can you know the heart of a person? How can you judge? You could publicize your work on internet sites that appeal to a certain type or group, or try to find clubs and groups that could relate to the material, but not everyone who might relate to your project will belong to these kinds of groups.

Judging? Well let's see - I judge by how someone makes me feel. If I feel sick, then you're icky to me and I need not be around you. If I don't feel sick, then you've passed the preliminary exam. That's how I 'judge'. By determining how my body reacts to those around me.

SO, in order for me to not be sick ALL of the time, I cannot just let ANYONE inside/around me. Get that part?

I am not sure you mean worthiness?

YES I mean worthiness. But not in the sense of Higher than or Lower than. Apparently, everyone is worthy in the eyes of the Creator, but not EVERYONE is to benefit from or be exposed to what I am doing or supposed to do. THAT is how I use the word 'worthy'. If you don't understand the work [at this time] then you're not worthy of knowing the meaning of it by me explaining it to you. You have to develop the experience, discernment, and insight in order to get it yourself. I'm not going to spoon feed it. It's not my place to spoon feed it.

I am not sure exactly what kind of people you mean to attract.

Nor do I. I don't know who; all I know is those who 'get it' are those who are 'worthy' of it. That's all I've been told, and that's all I know.

To point to a random person and say 'You're worthy' or 'You're not worthy' is out of alignment with my 'work' or what it is I am doing. Those that get it, will come. Those that don't, just won't.

I do think that if you form a working definition for your product... a sort of description that is not a spoiler of the plot, but at least a way of explaining it, and what this is all about would help. If you explain it right, only those interested will be attracted.

Well that's the thing - explain it 'Right' according to whom? For example, a dancer recently purchased a pair of earrings from me. Her comment:

They are quite splendid... yes, they have a mysterious quality.

This was after posting on her page the name of the earrings and their character , NOT the meaning behind the symbolism.

THAT is actually what I hope to attract - people like her that are able to discern it themselves. If they wish to know more, they ask. Other than that...

I would really like to know more about what this is about myself. In general, think of the movie trailers and book jackets and reviews you have seen. Try to write one for your project. I think that most shallow people will weed themselves out by show of interest if you are clear about what it is you are doing.

Kim

Right now is 'Not the time' for me to do what I REALLY want to do. I've been dreaming about; hell even the deity Bast can't wait until I'm called upon. She's said so herself. In the meantime, I am to be patient.

Ok. What can I do to generate some type of income, keeping an eye on my health? I'll do art based on a quarter of what I know I am to do - recreating a long lost lineage.

I've learned that I need to simply just be present, and be careful with how much I share because it's always incomplete. Yes, my dreams are to be shared, but it's closely related to what I need to be patient for and this lineage. So, I'm just going to sit with my art and leave it at that.

[KG]

I guess I feel led to reply to both of your posts, even though one is to Xav... I guess because I agree with Xav and was relieved that he had already answered the part I was struggling with. I've not been well myself and struggle not to be too abrupt or harsh with people. It's amazing how cranky we can get when we hurt and feel yucky. I can really relate to your physical state, and since neither of us is well, I don't want to irritate you with a poor choice of words or a snap judgment.

I am also terribly lonely and... bored. I usually do not have the capacity to be bored so it's a relatively new experience with me. I feel true emptiness. There are so many things I just don't want to think about, that there isn't much left. At the same time I am so interested in demographics lately and understanding the world's problems that I can scarcely think of my own small world.

Well, thanks for taking the time to respond...

>.< The days of me being misunderstood will never end. That usually happens when there isn't enough information on the table.

My bad for not relaying ALL of the info. It's just that not ALL is ever revealed to me in one sitting.

I know the feeling... it's so annoying when they want us do to something and don't give us enough information. I am in exactly the same place. I am scarcely able to do anything. I get the feeling of a call to act. I write all night and the next morning my husband lectures me on the exact opposite view of the issue I was discussing. I haven't even mentioned what I wrote... I can see his POV as well and scrap what I was doing... there are so many ways to look at all issues, and I don't want to be one sided. I think he is unknowingly helping me write this, and yet it doesn't feel helpful.

I am trying to write from my own brain though... so many statistics and a greater understanding is required... but in the end I will no doubt need to channel some parts as inspired. It's so hard to get answers though.

"Once upon a time, in a far far away land where 'Del' lay in a deep slumber, she was so over protective of her work, that she couldn't even show it to the light of day. She kept it hidden. She so desired appreciation for it yet feared criticism [especially constructive ones]..."

As an experienced artist, I can say that dislike of criticism never goes away entirely, except perhaps for a season... generally though criticism only hits home when it is deserved, and we ourselves are not satisfied with our work. Otherwise it just ticks us off a little, and then we move on quickly. When your work is ready you will reveal it. Until then, the rest of us will suffer unbearable curiosity.

Ok Xav, in the past, you would have been right. But you're Wrong. I'm not SEEKING appreciation from anyone outside of myself. I could spend hours creating, and not care if people saw it or didn't see it.

I get it, this is not about people. This is about some other entity or entities... and about what is within you that has to get out.

The issue I'm trying to resolve is: HOW do I make a living just being blissful?

Well it's hard enough to make money if you don't mind being miserable. How to make money is perhaps the most difficult question of the 21st Century, at least so far. Everyone wants to know the answer and fewer people are finding it than usual.

Overall though the answer is the same as always, get a lousy slaving job... get education to get a better job, or create your job by being self employed. I always elect for the third and truly inspired self employment is usually joyful... further, joy comes from within.

Misery comes from without. I feel it too. It is everywhere. Fear, dread, misery, depression, sorrow and bitterness are everywhere. People all feel they deserve more than they are getting. They all want a chance, they want hope, and yet we are all so lazy... so lazy. I feel lazy and I am surrounded by people are looking for an easier way. I can barely put one foot in front of the other... I feel drained 24/7. There are many things I should do if I felt better.

Overall I think if you can get a plan that makes you happy, you can avoid that misery, but you will still get tired. Take vitamins and try to get enough rest.

I agree. I know I don't get to choose. I am trying to figure out where to place it so that those that need to see it, SEE it. So in a sense I am following the 'crowd' of eager artists, placing my artwork where it 'feels' comfortable to do so.

Good plan...

Don't be so eager to fall into the trap of believing that you yourself are the gatekeeper for any sort of spiritual awakening.

Nasty use of words. No, I don't THINK I'm the gatekeeper for any sort of spiritual awakening. I was simply asked to recreate a lineage that died out several thousand years ago. It has nothing to do with any spiritual awakening.

Well he put it better than I could. I too thought that from your post that you were going to start a major movement and wanted to hand pick your followers without meeting them. I suppose I am the one trying that... but I don't want followers in the sense that they look to me. I want leaders and self starters... who can use my tiny bit of wisdom and make something bigger. I am the one who wants to give people a means to survive, something to look forward to, and since I have decided that, I have lost it for myself, at least for now. Anyway I think I was projecting my motives on to you and then wondering why what you said did not fit.

If I had it my way, I'd ride the Earth of all humans, or I'd just take my own life [which I attempted to do and failed].

See, this is totally the opposite of what I want. I am greatly concerned about the people of the earth, as individuals. I want them to survive, or as many as possible. I am fighting to help them, but my own struggles keep sweeping me under. I too feel like ending it, but I have work to do as well.

If there is some sort of BIG DAY on the way, great! If not, great! Plainly put, I don't care about what happens to humanity. Fail or pass, I don't care. I'm only concerned about why I was placed here. I've already expressed my dislike of being here, so the Universe knows well what it is I want. I just need to be a little more patient.

It is so frustrating and patience is hard to have. I too feel urgency and yet I have writers block... or rather I write and write and none of it is good enough. (sigh)

SO, in the meantime, how do I 'make a living' off of being in 'Bliss'? That's my dilemma.

Bliss comes from within, and has nothing to do with circumstances, jobs or pass times. It is a gift of the creator as well. There is no bliss apart from deep spirituality. Being around miserable people can make bliss difficult, but not impossible. Being alone also makes bliss difficult sometimes... but no matter what you THINK is making your bliss hard to come by, it is the weakness of your bliss that is the problem, not just your surroundings. At least that is what I know with my heart mind and soul... but it is very hard to convince even myself that my problems are not external. Bliss and joy are their own shield when they are strong enough. Try singing and dancing if you are up to it. Build your bliss with a joyful spiritual practice.

Here's the thing with mingling in public - I LITERALLY get sick. I get bumped accidentally, I become SO nauseous that my body prepares itself to go into dry heaving, I get light headed and sometimes disoriented.

You have become increasingly sensitive to the emotions of others. I have had this for years, but I still manage to get out some... not as much as I would like to lately... but when I do, it doesn't bother me as much as it would normally. Perhaps we get used to it. It is also likely that I am more miserable than they are, since I have taken their suffering to heart. You however have been gravely ill and so I would take it easy.

Maybe I need to work on shielding [or just not go out anymore, don't know]...but I can't STAND being around the general public. They make me sick...literally.

Well obviously you have to shield. That is a duh too this day in age. Everyone is miserable. If you do happen to notice someone who isn't you can kind of follow them when you are out and use them as a shield as long as you are traveling in the same direction. Actually finding a positive person is a real stroke of luck these days. If you happen upon one be sure to smile and speak. It will help you and them.

And when I say 'general public', I'm talking about the people whose mindset is set only on 'survival'. If you still don't get what I mean, I guess it cannot be helped.

Well I am kind of looking for people who want to survive... enough to actually do something. Not just sit on their butts waiting to die. I find the hopelessness of those who have given up even more distressing. Also the oblivious are a concern... that dear in the headlights look that I may reflect myself at times.

Self actualization is what you are speaking of though. People only hit self actualization when their other needs are met or when they have faith that those needs will be met. Spiritual people float in and out of self actualization faster than others.

Simply put, if you're able to understand what the symbolism is saying, then you'll get it. If not, you just won't.
It's just a matter of getting my work out there.

I haven't fully finished the story yet BECAUSE it was just revealed to me. Now it's matter of piecing it together.

I am eager to see it when it is finished. I have no idea if I will understand it or resonate with it. We are in a different place, and yet our experience is similar. I think you are teaching something different than what I am called to teach. Yet I would love to see your "lesson plans" so to speak. I have respect for your work, whether I "get it" or not.

I have found myself more fearful than usual as I try to understand the mindset of those I am trying to reach. You on the other hand seem colder and more distant from humanity as you prepare to teach your pupils. We are going after "a different market demographic" obviously. Still the principles of advertising remain the same. Target marketing is what we are doing. We have to target the people we are after with graphics and words they will relate to. Your set will be different from my set... and thus just as Jesus, Mohammad, Krishna and Buddha set out, reaching whom they could, there is no competition. I am always annoyed with people who think religions and philosophies should compete. We learn what we can, and respect what we don't understand. I often think Jesus Krishna and Buddha all hang out with each other.

Ok, see, that whole ship thing....I don't want to deal with people with that type of deep subliminal issue. Really? You can't get over the fact that humans have both a sunny and shadow side? I mean, what's the point of preaching healing if ya not gonna do it yourself???

Ah, physician heal thy self. I certainly need to take that advice myself. I dream of Kony frequently... and see him laughing at me in my visions. He is apparently my new nemesis... but somehow his face does not anger me. I do not hate him as I despised the Demiurge, despite his awful atrocities. He is a human being, and not a spirit... not a deamon. He is merely a man who has done evil... not that he IS evil incarnate. I actually feel some shred of compassion in his direction. I seek to understand, not to destroy his eternal soul. He is mortal, and neither purely good or purely evil. Just stopping his work would be enough.

Anyway, those types of people, I cannot let inside. You get me?

Exactly! My point is to use a logo as a ward, against the people you do not want. Those who would not be right for your message could be repelled. Sarah uses wards to attract fairies and other good spirits while forbidding the entry of beings from the twilight regions. I was taught to use holy water to deter beings that would be harmful to me. People make a salt circle for similar reasons. Brick dust over the door jam... frequently used to ward off people and spirits that intend to do harm.

Create a design that attracts people who are ready for your message and wards off those who are not into it.

All of this is okay, if you're just wanting to get your stuff out there and simply 'make a living'.

It is the same principle. If you are selling a product, you want to attract people who would want to use it, because in theory at least you are helping people discover a product they want. Even advertising isn't just about money... it is about introducing new ideas and new helpful items to the public. The principles of Target marketing are applicable to your purposes and can be used to attract those who would be interested and dispatch those who are not.

That's not my goal. I"m okay with sitting at home [whomever's house] creating my stuff. I don't even want to own a home. That's how detached I am. So as long as I have food, a roof, and my art materials, I'm okay.

LOL isn't that all any of us want? Home ownership is just one way that people have of insuring they have a roof over their heads. If you are content living with other folks then that's cool... but art materials ain't cheap. LOL

BUT, I was placed here for a reason. And it's a little more than recreating a lineage. But right NOW, it's not the time.

So what do I do in the meantime? Art.

OK so the lineage died out and their knowledge was lost? You are getting that lost knowledge in a vision of these revelations. Now that is exciting.

So, I understand what this dream is saying - I can't allow just anyone in. Not everyone can enter my world.

If that's the case then, how In the WORLD do I make a living with what I am supposed to do?

How do I reach my audience??

Read articles about Niche writing and target marketing. Apply the PRINCIPLES to what you are doing. The specifics may be different, but the principles are the same thing. Also study wards and summoning to learn those principles. You will come up with an answer from that.

Those are the questions I hope are answered tonight.... I understand the need to be discreet and selective, but really? Can you guide them to me or show me how to contact them??

Perhaps you could contact some of them on the astral and get a sample of their energy, their tastes and their symbolism.

Judging? Well let's see - I judge by how someone makes me feel. If I feel sick, then you're icky to me and I need not be around you. If I don't feel sick, then you've passed the preliminary exam. That's how I 'judge'. By determining how my body reacts to those around me.

It is likely that those who make you feel sick are just unhappy. They may have suffering in their life. Some of them on the other hand may have negative intent or a desire to do harm. What do you sense that makes you feel icky. How icky?

SO, in order for me to not be sick ALL of the time, I cannot just let ANYONE inside/around me. Get that part?

You will not have direct contact with those who read your writing, view your art or watch your performances.

YES I mean worthiness. But not in the sense of Higher than or Lower than. Apparently, everyone is worthy in the eyes of the Creator, but not EVERYONE is to benefit from or be exposed to what I am doing or supposed to do. THAT is how I use the word 'worthy'. If you don't understand the work [at this time] then you're not worthy of knowing the meaning of it by me explaining it to you. You have to develop the experience, discernment, and insight in order to get it yourself. I'm not going to spoon feed it. It's not my place to spoon feed it.

Ummm.... OK

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I am not sure exactly what kind of people you mean to attract.
Nor do I. I don't know who; all I know is those who 'get it' are those who are 'worthy' of it. That's all I've been told, and that's all I know.

Well then it is for a specific group. It is simply not about some people. Not everyone has the same spiritual leanings. It as you said, is not about higher and lower. It's about who is supposed to be from that lineage. Those of other lineages who already have their orders may not relate to the experience you are offering.

To point to a random person and say 'You're worthy' or 'You're not worthy' is out of alignment with my 'work' or what it is I am doing. Those that get it, will come. Those that don't, just won't.

That much makes sense and can be controlled by your marketing... your logo and artwork... and descriptions will control who wants to see it.

Well that's the thing - explain it 'Right' according to whom? For example, a dancer recently purchased a pair of earrings from me. Her comment:


Quote:
They are quite splendid... yes, they have a mysterious quality.


This was after posting on her page the name of the earrings and their character , NOT the meaning behind the symbolism.

THAT is actually what I hope to attract - people like her that are able to discern it themselves. If they wish to know more, they ask. Other than that...

Kim
Right now is 'Not the time' for me to do what I REALLY want to do. I've been dreaming about; hell even the deity Bast can't wait until I'm called upon. She's said so herself. In the meantime, I am to be patient.

OK... I thought it was time to work on that, but if your spirit is saying to wait then OK. I kind of agree since you are feeling so unwell it may not be the right time.

Ok. What can I do to generate some type of income, keeping an eye on my health? I'll do art based on a quarter of what I know I am to do - recreating a long lost lineage.

I've learned that I need to simply just be present, and be careful with how much I share because it's always incomplete. Yes, my dreams are to be shared, but it's closely related to what I need to be patient for and this lineage

Writing and artwork have been the way I always made a living. It isn't hugely profitable, but you should be able to support yourself. There are many markets on line for writing. Artwork seems less helped by the internet... but you can sell your work on line.

I wish you luck on the project and think it is perhaps better that you are allowing the work to mature by taking it more slowly. Get your facts down and then just let it rest if you need to.

Best of Luck,

Kim

[Del]

As an experienced artist, I can say that dislike of criticism never goes away entirely, except perhaps for a season... generally though criticism only hits home when it is deserved, and we ourselves are not satisfied with our work. Otherwise it just ticks us off a little, and then we move on quickly. When your work is ready you will reveal it. Until then, the rest of us will suffer unbearable curiosity.

Well this is where our differences come to light. I"m not attached to the need for someone to like or even to have the Approval form others. I don't have that 'need' or 'want' anymore.

I understand WHERE criticism comes from, and what purpose it serves - look at the PARADIGM it's relevant to and then you can apply the need for criticism. If someone says I need more color or more depth or more lines or that my feather extensions are not enough or don't have the right materials - for what is all of this necessary? To WHOM is it necessary to please? If I am TRYING to please the people that it's normally for, THEN the criticism makes sense. But if I'm NOT in that PARADIGM then it is useless and makes no sense. It simply Does Not Apply - DNA.

All I DESIRE is to Be. That's it. And creating, bringing to light bits and pieces of my Dreams - which inform my path and purpose - is all I desire to do.
For me, when it comes to criticism - if you're going to critique it, do so in the 'realm'/place it is to be critiqued in.

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Ok Xav, in the past, you would have been right. But you're Wrong. I'm not SEEKING appreciation from anyone outside of myself. I could spend hours creating, and not care if people saw it or didn't see it.

I get it, this is not about people. This is about some other entity or entities... and about what is within you that has to get out. [/quote]Right!
Now, the general populace isn't really going to GET it. Only a few here and there.

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The issue I'm trying to resolve is: HOW do I make a living just being blissful?

Well it's hard enough to make money if you don't mind being miserable. How to make money is perhaps the most difficult question of the 21st Century, at least so far. Everyone wants to know the answer and fewer people are finding it than usual.

Ok, you misunderstood the statement I made.

I'm not MISERABLE when I'm engaged in the creative process or making my art. I am Miserable when I am doing a lousy job just to gain money to make ends meet. I'd rather make money to make ends meet provided I am creating artwork based on my Dreams, because that's all that matters. It's what I exist for anyway.

I'm not really interested in 'making money'. Nor am I interested in the concept of mere 'survival'. If I am going to be on this Earth, I want to 'thrive'. And THAT goes beyond getting a 'lousy job'. I won't last 7 days.

Overall though the answer is the same as always, get a lousy slaving job... get education to get a better job, or create your job by being self employed. I always elect for the third and truly inspired self employment is usually joyful... further, joy comes from within.

And I am making honest attempts at being self employed. It just takes time to get together.

All of this effort to generate income is for other people. I'm not interested in generating income, I just want to do my work and leave this planet.

Misery comes from without. I feel it too. It is everywhere. Fear, dread, misery, depression, sorrow and bitterness are everywhere. People all feel they deserve more than they are getting. They all want a chance, they want hope, and yet we are all so lazy... so lazy. I feel lazy and I am surrounded by people are looking for an easier way. I can barely put one foot in front of the other... I feel drained 24/7. There are many things I should do if I felt better.

Overall I think if you can get a plan that makes you happy, you can avoid that misery, but you will still get tired. Take vitamins and try to get enough rest.

I feel miserable when I"m not engaged in my art making process.

Art materials - I pawn my stuff when I need the money to purchase them. So I keep a keen eye on what I have left to pawn.

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I agree. I know I don't get to choose. I am trying to figure out where to place it so that those that need to see it, SEE it. So in a sense I am following the 'crowd' of eager artists, placing my artwork where it 'feels' comfortable to do so.

Good plan...

It's one I don't like since the majority of the people that show up to view the artists are regular people [people from the general paradigm of the art world]. They're not'who' i'm looking for, although they could know someone who might know someone.

So as I am informed by my dreams, it is the same process I am taking with finding my audience.

Don't be so eager to fall into the trap of believing that you yourself are the gatekeeper for any sort of spiritual awakening.

Nasty use of words. No, I don't THINK I'm the gatekeeper for any sort of spiritual awakening. I was simply asked to recreate a lineage that died out several thousand years ago. It has nothing to do with any spiritual awakening. [/quote]

Well he put it better than I could. I too thought that from your post that you were going to start a major movement and wanted to hand pick your followers without meeting them. I suppose I am the one trying that... but I don't want followers in the sense that they look to me. I want leaders and self starters... who can use my tiny bit of wisdom and make something bigger. I am the one who wants to give people a means to survive, something to look forward to, and since I have decided that, I have lost it for myself, at least for now. Anyway I think I was projecting my motives on to you and then wondering why what you said did not fit. [/quote] >.< No Kim, I'm not trying to handpick people either. Everyone has their way of viewing and experiencing things, and I don't want mindless people around me.

Yes, you were projecting your motives onto my stuff...and it carries throughout most of the conversation. We both have different views on a lot of things.

See, this is totally the opposite of what I want. I am greatly concerned about the people of the earth, as individuals. I want them to survive, or as many as possible. I am fighting to help them, but my own struggles keep sweeping me under. I too feel like ending it, but I have work to do as well.

I am greatly concerned about the stability and growth of the galactic sphere and Universe. Get rid of what's of no use, replenish what is, and bring in what will be of great help. If people can't help themselves, then they become a hindrance.... It's a wonder that Earth hasn't shaken us off yet. Hmmm...

It is so frustrating and patience is hard to have. I too feel urgency and yet I have writers block... or rather I write and write and none of it is good enough. (sigh)

Ok, this is what I'm talking about. Not good enough for what? For whom?

Bliss comes from within

I KNOW.

and has nothing to do with circumstances, jobs or pass times. It is a gift of the creator as well. There is no bliss apart from deep spirituality. Being around miserable people can make bliss difficult, but not impossible. Being alone also makes bliss difficult sometimes... but no matter what you THINK is making your bliss hard to come by, it is the weakness of your bliss that is the problem, not just your surroundings. At least that is what I know with my heart mind and soul... but it is very hard to convince even myself that my problems are not external. Bliss and joy are their own shield when they are strong enough. Try singing and dancing if you are up to it. Build your bliss with a joyful spiritual practice.

My question was how do I make a living off of Being IN Bliss. I'm AROUND miserable people - my family - and that makes things difficult. Making money, that whole concept, is for THEM, not me. Perhaps they should be my manager. It'll make them happy, since I"m generating income like they want me to.

I'm in bliss just by doing my art. How do I generate income in addition to that? That's where I am.

You have become increasingly sensitive to the emotions of others.

Yes, I have. It also makes me sick to be around family members when they're in an unhealthy and confrontational mindset.

I have had this for years, but I still manage to get out some... not as much as I would like to lately... but when I do, it doesn't bother me as much as it would normally. Perhaps we get used to it. It is also likely that I am more miserable than they are, since I have taken their suffering to heart. You however have been gravely ill and so I would take it easy.

Ugh, I'm not taking on anybody's stuff. I've got my own stuff and it's feel good stuff and it WILL NOT be contaminated. And yes, having been ill contributes to it. Which is why I hesitate when I have to use public transit.

Well obviously you have to shield. That is a duh too this day in age.

Duh. Yes, we both get it. I need to relearn or learn how to cause just thinking about going out
gives me the aches.

Everyone is miserable. If you do happen to notice someone who isn't you can kind of follow them when you are out and use them as a shield as long as you are traveling in the same direction. Actually finding a positive person is a real stroke of luck these days. If you happen upon one be sure to smile and speak. It will help you and them.

>.<

Well I am kind of looking for people who want to survive... enough to actually do something. Not just sit on their butts waiting to die. I find the hopelessness of those who have given up even more distressing. Also the oblivious are a concern... that dear in the headlights look that I may reflect myself at times.

That's everyone else - wanting to survive. Perhaps it 's a different Quality of people in the survival mode you're searching for? Not necessarily those that want to survive, but those that want to be and do more.

I'm seeking for those that are in the same mission boat as I am - restoring the sphere.

Self actualization is what you are speaking of though. People only hit self actualization when their other needs are met or when they have faith that those needs will be met.

More than that. Once you've hit self actualization, you go through the motions you mention below. But once you've come to a point of Realization where nothing and no one else can change that, then you've arrived closer. Those are the types I'm looking to be around.

Who my audience is, is a different story.

Spiritual people float in and out of self actualization faster than others.

Everyone is spiritual, They just haven't realized it yet...that's why they float in and out.

I am eager to see it when it is finished. I have no idea if I will understand it or resonate with it. We are in a different place, and yet our experience is similar. I think you are teaching something different than what I am called to teach. Yet I would love to see your "lesson plans" so to speak. I have respect for your work, whether I "get it" or not.

I'll be sure to share.

Here's a quick summary of a dream that relates to the lineage - I was taken to Egypt, to an old pyramid, where beams of light were shining through the sides, onto a platform in the middle. On this platform rests an ancient relic - a small, round stone of blood. A man had me escorted all the way to Egypt so he could explain to me the point and purpose of this stone - it allows a Dynasty to be created, but in order for that to happen, the stone of blood needs to be dissolved in blood. The blood has to be the 'right' blood - the blood of the one who will allow the creation of this dynasty to come to being. And he needed my blood to make it happen. Preparations were being made in those moments; it was almost time.

I have found myself more fearful than usual as I try to understand the mindset of those I am trying to reach. You on the other hand seem colder and more distant from humanity as you prepare to teach your pupils.

Colder, distant...I see the problem in our communication. It's the use of terminology.

You say 'distant' - I say 'unattached'. You say 'colder' - I say indifferent. It's not that I think lowly of humanity. It's that I SEE how far gone humanity has become and am okay with the idea of pushing the 'reset' button. Everything has gone way out of bounds. And it needs to be brought back into alignment. Some people will get it, and others will not.

My greatest concern is for everything OUTSIDE of the Earth, because it's what SUPPORTS the Earth, which supports Humanity...and people do not have a clear understanding of it.

It has nothing to do with connecting to what's out there. It's simple - connect to what's inside, and let the rest take care of itself.

We are going after "a different market demographic" obviously. Still the principles of advertising remain the same. Target marketing is what we are doing. We have to target the people we are after with graphics and words they will relate to. Your set will be different from my set... and thus just as Jesus, Mohammad, Krishna and Buddha set out, reaching whom they could, there is no competition. I am always annoyed with people who think religions and philosophies should compete. We learn what we can, and respect what we don't understand. I often think Jesus Krishna and Buddha all hang out with each other.

Ok, but I still don't know WHO or WHERE to Target.

Exactly! My point is to use a logo as a ward, against the people you do not want. Those who would not be right for your message could be repelled. Sarah uses wards to attract fairies and other good spirits while forbidding the entry of beings from the twilight regions. I was taught to use holy water to deter beings that would be harmful to me. People make a salt circle for similar reasons. Brick dust over the door jam... frequently used to ward off people and spirits that intend to do harm.

Create a design that attracts people who are ready for your message and wards off those who are not into it.

Well, it's not a matter of ONE design...it appears to be a SERIES of such...color scheme and all.

It is the same principle. If you are selling a product, you want to attract people who would want to use it, because in theory at least you are helping people discover a product they want. Even advertising isn't just about money... it is about introducing new ideas and new helpful items to the public. The principles of Target marketing are applicable to your purposes and can be used to attract those who would be interested and dispatch those who are not.

YES, BUT WHOM am I TARGETING??? Aliens??? Or People?? Where do they live? What do they do? What industry are they in?? i don't know, so how can I target if I don't know who or what I'm targeting??

LOL isn't that all any of us want? Home ownership is just one way that people have of insuring they have a roof over their heads. If you are content living with other folks then that's cool... but art materials ain't cheap. LOL

No. All any of us want is to be secure. But in order to do that, you need to be secure in yourself first. The bank can take your house away...but not your Essence.

I'm secure in myself, so I haven't a care for an outside house.

Art materials aren't cheap. Which is why I've been pawning off gold when in need...

OK so the lineage died out and their knowledge was lost?

YES.

You are getting that lost knowledge in a vision of these revelations.

YES.

Now that is exciting.

It was...now it's frustrating. How do you bank on a half baked potato, when banking isn't what you really want anyway?

Read articles about Niche writing and target marketing.

Who' my niche?

Apply the PRINCIPLES to what you are doing. The specifics may be different, but the principles are the same thing. Also study wards and summoning to learn those principles. You will come up with an answer from that.

Ok, now with the summoning, we're getting somewhere. I am still searching for my niche. The Universe even said to me that what I am to do, doesn't have a name. And thus far, all of humanity knows only labels. Niche = clueless.

Summoning is in process. I've asked and I've only been shown more pieces to the puzzle...so...

Perhaps you could contact some of them on the astral and get a sample of their energy, their tastes and their symbolism.

Ah, well i'm in contact with my predecessors and ancestors...but as for those that are to be reached?? Hasn't happened yet.

It is likely that those who make you feel sick are just unhappy. They may have suffering in their life. Some of them on the other hand may have negative intent or a desire to do harm. What do you sense that makes you feel icky. How icky?

Most likely unhappiness; it's like a hunger I get from them when they stare at me. And it's sickening. Not the type that comes from your stomach...

You will not have direct contact with those who read your writing, view your art or watch your performances.

Well most if not part of my work, requires it.

Well then it is for a specific group. It is simply not about some people. Not everyone has the same spiritual leanings. It as you said, is not about higher and lower. It's about who is supposed to be from that lineage. Those of other lineages who already have their orders may not relate to the experience you are offering.

Maybe, I don't know.

The images I keep seeing is setting pieces around the world, so that energy can emit from it, which would in turn assist the Sphere, Galaxy and beyond.

That much makes sense and can be controlled by your marketing... your logo and artwork... and descriptions will control who wants to see it.

When I know who to market to, sure.

OK... I thought it was time to work on that, but if your spirit is saying to wait then OK. I kind of agree since you are feeling so unwell it may not be the right time.

I thought it was time as well. Bu it isn't. Healing is the time now. And preparations.

Writing and artwork have been the way I always made a living. It isn't hugely profitable, but you should be able to support yourself. There are many markets on line for writing. Artwork seems less helped by the internet... but you can sell your work on line.

I've tried writing as freelance and whatnot..didn't work out for me. If it has not hing to do with my work, it doesn't get done, no mater how sensible the task or idea.

I wish you luck on the project and think it is perhaps better that you are allowing the work to mature by taking it more slowly. Get your facts down and then just let it rest if you need to.

Best of Luck,

Kim

Thanks.

[Xavrael]

Nasty use of words. No, I don't THINK I'm the gatekeeper for any sort of spiritual awakening. I was simply asked to recreate a lineage that died out several thousand years ago. It has nothing to do with any spiritual awakening.

Then I stand corrected. At the time, going off of what was said and what I've seen you write before, It just came off that way though I felt no specific way about it, one way or the other.

Words are nice. A lot of times they're exactly what you want to say when you write them, but completely different when read by another. You said I had a nasty use of words there. Maybe. If it cut, there had to be something to be cut in the first place. Maybe.

It seems that with more information, you piece things together nicely, but as you do, sometimes your words talk of what seems like two different things. The resurrection of a lost lineage, or bringing about this desired..uh.. Reset? Maybe the ends are the same. Or the desired ends anyway.

Either way! I think in some cases you may simply be over analyzing, honestly. You're dancing around your solution.

You don't *NEED* to know your "niche" audience. You'll find them when they're there, eyes open with understanding of whatever message you're wanting to convey. No need to do anything fancy. Just be honest about what you want to do, and make that your message.

As for making a living being blissful...
If only we could be so lucky. It happens every now and then to be sure. However, the only famous artists I know, are the dead ones. I blame that on my ignorance to the art world, as i'm sure there are brilliant artists out there right now, alive and well... But I doubt they're self sufficient because of their art alone (and not commissions, requests, or other things outside of their own likes).

But, again, who knows! The world is looking darker for me nowadays (though I doubt the world has changed and it's myself that has), and it would be nice to hear about your success.

[KG]

Well this is where our differences come to light. I"m not attached to the need for someone to like or even to have the Approval form others. I don't have that 'need' or 'want' anymore.

I am interested in client approval, and also public approval because I am in business... or I used to be. Not sure exactly what now. It's mostly because my income has always depended on approval by committees and groups as well as individual clients, and also, I have a sense of wanting to get it right. Right is more important than if people like it... except for the client who pays me, and I will do whatever they want since it is their picture, but I really hate it when they want me to do something I don't think looks good. Still as long as it isn't illegal or immoral I will generally choose to humor the client. I remember the worst one was when a client wanted a huge coal black parking lot in front of their building in an architectural rendering... the fact he was unhappy with my tasteful gray version of the blacktop really screwed up my beautiful painting. It hurt but I wanted the money, and more than that, I wanted a satisfied client. Customer satisfaction is very important in any sort of business. It has to be the number one priority.

I also have the good sense to listen to people who are more experienced than I, or have knowledge that I may not have. I also respect anyone who gives me an objective opinion, and weigh what they say. Sometimes it does hurt my feelings, cause me extra work to correct or just irritate me, but I'd rather know if I have made a mistake.

Sometimes we artists get too close to our work and don't see obvious flaws till they are pointed out. There is a huge difference between a critique and an attack. Any artist who thinks they are too good to receive an honest critique will never improve or grow their skills. Any person who does not accept critique of any kind, and at least consider what was said will never grow as a person. That doesn't mean that we have to mindlessly obey every crack pot that has an opinion... but if they have a point, they have a point. Critique perfects skills and should always be taken with thanks... whether you feel like thanking them or not.

I understand WHERE criticism comes from, and what purpose it serves - look at the PARADIGM it's relevant to and then you can apply the need for criticism. If someone says I need more color or more depth or more lines or that my feather extensions are not enough or don't have the right materials - for what is all of this necessary? To WHOM is it necessary to please? If I am TRYING to please the people that it's normally for, THEN the criticism makes sense. But if I'm NOT in that PARADIGM then it is useless and makes no sense. It simply Does Not Apply - DNA.

Correct, the customer is always right... even when their ideas look like crap... you have a choice of whether to do the work or not... or you can try to talk them out of it if it really looks bad, but in the end, they are the boss. Other people matter less, but overall you want people to see your work and like it, then order some for themselves. For that reason if a not so influential client wants something unbearably tacky, you can always say no and offer a refund.

All I DESIRE is to Be. That's it. And creating, bringing to light bits and pieces of my Dreams - which inform my path and purpose - is all I desire to do.
For me, when it comes to criticism - if you're going to critique it, do so in the 'realm'/place it is to be critiqued in.

I don't understand...

Right!
Now, the general populace isn't really going to GET it. Only a few here and there.

That is correct and symbolic works can be appreciated by people who do NOT get it at all. Just look at the works of CS Lewis, Fairy Tales and even modern movies like the Matrix. Masses of people like these, but very few really get what the writer was trying to say. These stories are multiple level... If you want to believe that "The Lion the witch and the Wardrobe" is really about Lions, Fanciful mythological creatures and four little kids that find a secret panel behind a wardrobe, then you still enjoy the story. It was written for children. I read it as a child and it is fine on that level, but there are deeper meanings for those who know.

Multilevel writing is most obvious in sacred texts. The Bible seems at first to be very straight forward but it is full of hidden meanings, many of which one cannot decipher without bible history and some lost books that have recently been found. The Hindu writings are more obviously symbolic but some people take them literally and still glean something from them.

I'm not MISERABLE when I'm engaged in the creative process or making my art. I am Miserable when I am doing a lousy job just to gain money to make ends meet. I'd rather make money to make ends meet provided I am creating artwork based on my Dreams, because that's all that matters. It's what I exist for anyway.

Well if it makes you happy and you can make enough to get by, then that is enough.

I'm not really interested in 'making money'. Nor am I interested in the concept of mere 'survival'. If I am going to be on this Earth, I want to 'thrive'. And THAT goes beyond getting a 'lousy job'. I won't last 7 days.

I agree there... besides getting a lousy job is no longer easy. I mean I used to take jobs sometimes because it was easy come and easy go. You could apply, work till you got sick of it, quit and go back into business for yourself or find another job. Now minimum wage jobs act like they are doing you such a favor, and they are so hard to come by. It's not the same as when I was young, and you could get two jobs in one day and pick which one you wanted.

And I am making honest attempts at being self employed. It just takes time to get together.

All of this effort to generate income is for other people. I'm not interested in generating income, I just want to do my work and leave this planet.

OH dear... well it does take time to get things together when you are self employed. It takes time to get any business making a profit.
As for leaving the planet... well... I don't think that's a good idea. Actually it is the stupidest idea I have ever heard come out of your mouth... or typing fingers as the case may be. You are here... other people are here... be thankful for that. You are inflecting that you want to die... why exactly? I mean I feel that way too sometimes, but I realize I have a job to do, or rather I have more jobs than I can do. I am worried about not having enough time to complete my tasks before old age or senility take me over. You are young and you will need all your time here to compete what you are doing.

Life will be done soon enough, and perhaps too soon as it is. Just enjoy the bliss you get from your work, and sell your stuff.

I feel miserable when I"m not engaged in my art making process.

Art materials - I pawn my stuff when I need the money to purchase them. So I keep a keen eye on what I have left to pawn.

That only goes so far. You will eventually run out of stuff. Sales are important and thus creating work to sell is also important. You should price your work so that you can afford more materials, and pay for your time. I think I have gone over that formula with you and frankly right now I'd be hard pressed to figure it because the economy is in such sorry shape. In general, twice the hourly wage someone would make working for what your skill is worth, plus the cost of actual materials used... something like that.

If your work is $10 an hour then charge $20 an hour... or if $7 then charge $15... easier to figure... plus the cost of materials and equipment bought for that project. Another words if it takes you between 6 and 8 hours to do a painting, and you spend $20 on canvas and paint, then I always figure this way:

$20 x 6 is $120
$15 x 8 is $120
It usually averages out to the same amount that way and you keep your prices consistent.
Then you just add your materials cost... $20 for example and you should charge $140 for the example. Of course it depends on how much time you have in it... and how much you feel your time is worth but that is the general idea.



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It's one I don't like since the majority of the people that show up to view the artists are regular people [people from the general paradigm of the art world]. They're not'who' i'm looking for, although they could know someone who might know someone.

So as I am informed by my dreams, it is the same process I am taking with finding my audience.

You might be lucky or unlucky to get people who even know about art. I found a better market for my work in a small town, where a commercial artist was hard to find... but with fine art, you have to test the market at different places. I have totally wasted time before with a few head shops and gaming places where I hung my work. I find that appreciation does not always equal a sale. Take it where the money is. Hang your work where people with money will see it. Restaurants and other luxury places... sadly including hospitals here are good places to hang work.

.< No Kim, I'm not trying to handpick people either. Everyone has their way of viewing and experiencing things, and I don't want mindless people around me.

Sounds like you don't want anyone around you. I understand perfectly but eventually you might tire of it... I have. I'd like to get out more....

Yes, you were projecting your motives onto my stuff...and it carries throughout most of the conversation. We both have different views on a lot of things.

Yes we do, but more importantly, I really don't think you are thinking clearly right now, and I am not myself either. I get a huge sense that we are becoming our projects.

I am greatly concerned about the stability and growth of the galactic sphere and Universe. Get rid of what's of no use, replenish what is, and bring in what will be of great help. If people can't help themselves, then they become a hindrance.... It's a wonder that Earth hasn't shaken us off yet. Hmmm...

Well... Everyone is useless every now and then. People need time to pick themselves up and dust themselves off. You do too... but sometimes we don't get that time... and no I do not want the earth to start shaking people off. You forget that crazy idea or not, I feel that I am Mercy incarnate. Just because I am feeling cranky doesn't mean Mercy is ready to just write humanity off as a failed cause... even if they are not doing well right now.

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It is so frustrating and patience is hard to have. I too feel urgency and yet I have writers block... or rather I write and write and none of it is good enough. (sigh)
Ok, this is what I'm talking about. Not good enough for what? For whom?

In my own case, I feel that I am struggling with trying to put down too many ideas at once, without confusing them or scaring the daylights out of them. I keep feeling like a mom, wrapping my kids to go out into the snow, and getting them so wrapped that they can't move. I want people to realize what they are up against and take action to preserve themselves. In order to do that, they must step from a place of fear and helplessness into a place of confidence, strength and even excitement about their goals. I am having trouble mustering this for myself and that is the problem... hence what I said about Physician heal thyself. I have to get over being freaked out by world changes enough to encourage others.

My question was how do I make a living off of Being IN Bliss. I'm AROUND miserable people - my family - and that makes things difficult. Making money, that whole concept, is for THEM, not me. Perhaps they should be my manager. It'll make them happy, since I"m generating income like they want me to.

I'm in bliss just by doing my art. How do I generate income in addition to that? That's where I am.

Your family is not alone in being miserable. Most people are these days. My family isn't all peachy either. I'm not very happy myself right now... everyone is going nuts, including me... possibly including you... IDK... I admit I am lazy and grouchy and basically upset about how things are going.

Sell it.. sell your work. Keep on trying to market it. You are in NYC and I have always heard that is a great place to sell artwork.

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You have become increasingly sensitive to the emotions of others.
Yes, I have. It also makes me sick to be around family members when they're in an unhealthy and confrontational mindset.

Yep!!! Been there, done that and bought a few T-shirts. Welcome to the club. People are just like that... you aren't exactly being a peach either right now... and neither am I. We are all human and stress does that.

Ugh, I'm not taking on anybody's stuff. I've got my own stuff and it's feel good stuff and it WILL NOT be contaminated. And yes, having been ill contributes to it. Which is why I hesitate when I have to use public transit.

Oh i think NYC and public transit would drive me crazy. It's bad enough having to dive into the grocery store and grab a buggy full of groceries once in a while. I refuse to go to Wal-Mart. Walmart energy sucks.

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Well obviously you have to shield. That is a duh too this day in age.
Duh. Yes, we both get it. I need to relearn or learn how to cause just thinking about going out
gives me the aches.

Oh yeah... fer sure... It's something I never wanted... to be cut off like this, but I can't stand a whole lot... but sometimes, rarely I feel better for getting out. I personally have found that I like Mexican people. I like to go to the Mexican restaurant, even though I am not fond of the food because they have good energy... Chinese and Thi are also good for energy.

That's everyone else - wanting to survive. Perhaps it 's a different Quality of people in the survival mode you're searching for? Not necessarily those that want to survive, but those that want to be and do more.

Well I think we are defining survival differently. I am looking for people who are ready to do something about their problems but just don't know what exactly they need to do. As for those types I find annoying, everyone I notice is wanting more, but they want instant gratification. They are discouraged because there mommy didn't give them enough money to go to the mall. No one is wanting to take any responsibility or initiative. They talk about wanting a JOB at most, but there are not a lot of self starters. You are trying to self start, but you've been sick and you are in a hell of a shape physically, your nerves are obviously so jangled and sensitive.... well it isn't easy but you will plow through as always.

I'm seeking for those that are in the same mission boat as I am - restoring the sphere.

Personally I think the sphere will make it... just not in the same shape it was. If it does not then I am not sure what I'll be able to do about that. I am concerned about whether human life will survive and in what way. Of course if the sphere collapses that is worse. I just think it will be OK... you don't??? Gee now I have something new to worry about!!!

More than that. Once you've hit self actualization, you go through the motions you mention below. But once you've come to a point of Realization where nothing and no one else can change that, then you've arrived closer. Those are the types I'm looking to be around.

Yep... I guess so... I think I have back slid to a point... I feel pretty insecure even though I know better.

Everyone is spiritual, They just haven't realized it yet...that's why they float in and out.

Interesting point.


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I'll be sure to share.

I look forward to reading it.

Here's a quick summary of a dream that relates to the lineage - I was taken to Egypt, to an old pyramid, where beams of light were shining through the sides, onto a platform in the middle. On this platform rests an ancient relic - a small, round stone of blood. A man had me escorted all the way to Egypt so he could explain to me the point and purpose of this stone - it allows a Dynasty to be created, but in order for that to happen, the stone of blood needs to be dissolved in blood. The blood has to be the 'right' blood - the blood of the one who will allow the creation of this dynasty to come to being. And he needed my blood to make it happen. Preparations were being made in those moments; it was almost time.

Sounds deeply symbolic. Several interpretations are possible just from this bit. It could be a reference to mixing of bloodlines... by perhaps long frozen sperm... frozen "eggs." Blood could also mean a sacrifice of some type, like giving to or devoting time or a ritual to bring something back to life... reconstituting it's life's blood so to speak. Or I could not be getting it at all yet. I look forward to reading it all.

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I have found myself more fearful than usual as I try to understand the mindset of those I am trying to reach. You on the other hand seem colder and more distant from humanity as you prepare to teach your pupils.
Colder, distant...I see the problem in our communication. It's the use of terminology.

You say 'distant' - I say 'unattached'. You say 'colder' - I say indifferent. It's not that I think lowly of humanity. It's that I SEE how far gone humanity has become and am okay with the idea of pushing the 'reset' button. Everything has gone way out of bounds. And it needs to be brought back into alignment. Some people will get it, and others will not.

Well as Mercy, I have never been able to grasp non-attachment, even though I understand the theory, I cannot master it. Still in my more objective moments I see what you mean... the world is F**ked, the people are weak and kind of stupid. Everyone thinks the government will fix their problems... when in fact they caused the problem and some of them want it to get worse. I just really don't want that to happen. I want another hundred lifetimes on this planet... I am not sure why. I want my kids to grow up and die of old age, and I want everyone in the world to be fed, clothed and happy... I know all that may not happen, but it's what I want and what I fight for.

I can't imagine being indifferent to human life. It's just not in my nature but you are not me... and yes, I see it but I don't have to like it... or take it lying down... provided I can muster taking a stand.

I can't look at people in the eye, and think well it would be OK if you all died. On the rare occasion I can, even for a second with some terminally ill patient who is suffering, I think there must be something wrong with me to think that.

My greatest concern is for everything OUTSIDE of the Earth, because it's what SUPPORTS the Earth, which supports Humanity...and people do not have a clear understanding of it.

It has nothing to do with connecting to what's out there. It's simple - connect to what's inside, and let the rest take care of itself.

Ah, I can relate to that. I lived in an inner world for years, but something has awakened me back to this world. I feel about this physical world like one would think of a lover that I deliberately neglected until he was near death and then in a last ditch effort i am attempting CPR... the world has always been second to heaven... I think of it as heaven, what's inside, but still... I see that we need this world. I want this world to change. I want it to be better, but I do not want it to be gone.

I think the earth is like a cancer patient and I am pounding on it's chest with CPR when perhaps if we had given it adequate nutrition it would not be in such sorry shape now.

Ok, but I still don't know WHO or WHERE to Target.

I'd say people who are attracted to the various elements of your story... you've always been interested in Egypt... Your keywords should perhaps include Egypt. If that is truly the main point use Egyptian looking artwork... of course there may be other elements that will become more noticeable as you write more.

Create a design that attracts people who are ready for your message and wards off those who are not into it.
Well, it's not a matter of ONE design...it appears to be a SERIES of such...color scheme and all.

That sounds good.

YES, BUT WHOM am I TARGETING??? Aliens??? Or People?? Where do they live? What do they do? What industry are they in?? i don't know, so how can I target if I don't know who or what I'm targeting??

Target them on line by their interests. They will be spread all over. They will be doing all sorts of things, but your artwork will draw them... send out your invitation on the world wide web... use keywords and artwork that will draw them to it.

No. All any of us want is to be secure. But in order to do that, you need to be secure in yourself first. The bank can take your house away...but not your Essence.

I'm secure in myself, so I haven't a care for an outside house.

Art materials aren't cheap. Which is why I've been pawning off gold when in need...

OK... I miss that feeling of feeling secure lately... I am in a tailspin... even though I am sitting around typing right now. LOL I find a sense of urgency growing in my chest... making my heart flutter.

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Now that is exciting.
It was...now it's frustrating. How do you bank on a half baked potato, when banking isn't what you really want anyway?

I am noticing that feeling of being half baked in my own work as well... I really want to finish my book, but I can't because I keep restarting it. LOL I've never been so indecisive in my life.

Who' my niche?

People who are involved in this stuff will be drawn to various aspects of the story subconsciously. Plus open invites are fine, because your artwork will weed out most of the ones who will not understand.

Ok, now with the summoning, we're getting somewhere. I am still searching for my niche. The Universe even said to me that what I am to do, doesn't have a name. And thus far, all of humanity knows only labels. Niche = clueless.

Summoning is in process. I've asked and I've only been shown more pieces to the puzzle...so...

Summoning is good. As for Niche.... my niche is people who type help me into the google toolbar. I really feel sorry for these folks. Not only are they desperate they don't understand the principles of using a search engine and they are a huge demographic of people on line. As soon as I learned help me was a major keyword, I became inspired.

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Perhaps you could contact some of them on the astral and get a sample of their energy, their tastes and their symbolism.
Ah, well i'm in contact with my predecessors and ancestors...but as for those that are to be reached?? Hasn't happened yet.

It will, when the time comes.

Most likely unhappiness; it's like a hunger I get from them when they stare at me. And it's sickening. Not the type that comes from your stomach...

Oh yeah that... well blending in helps. Try to just pass unnoticed. I do that a lot lately.


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The images I keep seeing is setting pieces around the world, so that energy can emit from it, which would in turn assist the Sphere, Galaxy and beyond.

I have seen a map somewhere recently as well... or more like a globe... I couldn't make it out though. On an aside note did you know the people in Russia are dying? Dropping like flies!! It is very alarming. Some say their health care system has completely failed and that is the cause. They are not having babies either... their population has dropped very abruptly. Other countries have similar problems but it's not so extreme except in Russia.

I thought it was time as well. Bu it isn't. Healing is the time now. And preparations.

Yes we need to heal, but it feels so urgent as well... IDK... but you do need to rest your nerves are too raw...

I've tried writing as freelance and whatnot..didn't work out for me. If it has not hing to do with my work, it doesn't get done, no mater how sensible the task or idea.

Ah... I wrestle with these things as well...

I hope you feel better and I will talk to you again soon.

Kim

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I only read a brief bit of the original post, and i can only say that the path of mastery, be it dancing, art, music, or Taijiquan, the path of a master is carved fresh and anew.

It is scarce a master whose craft generates any income, an audience of worthy calibur; it is not often that someone with reknowable ability is ever noticed for their true gift.


I've read a book recently that rings on your predicament in a sort of way, Dreamwalker, by Mary Summer Rain. her books generally talk of her tutor, No Eyes, who could be compared to the mastery and audience seeking you hint at.

Maybe a choice for your reading...? i dont know, but i was compelled to share it

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Well after reading hte rest, i can offer that i am able to relate, albiet in a somewhat whimsical way, that i am trying to craft out a fictional world comparable to or greater than the works of J. R. R. Tolkien, Blizzard Entertainment, and ancient Greece, Norse, and Celtic. Possibly combined (literally combined in essence, but not necessarily in calibur).

I've spent over 12 or 13 years working this in my mind and scrapping paper and internet pages of hashouts and poorly organized collaborations. Even now, atotpd.proboards.com holds most of my successes.

Recently, i have come to organize much of this work into a pen-and-paper style RPG format with an extensive stat system of 13 stats, most which are auxillary to 11 additional stats... which is actually, probably, too daunting for pen-and-paper RPG, but i have no PC at this time to work out any sense of videogame RPG, let along programming skill to shoot it with.


Never the less, the information i am willing to share is drastically minimal in contrast to the content i have immagined and calculated.

My aspirations are higher than realistic probability, while the potential of this work is quite possibly greater than my aspirations... leaving me quite anxious.

It might be a far cry from reality, let alone spirituality, but i am also struggling to make it a work for the spirit, to honor the spirit in the only way i know how.


I've included 20 elements in teh 5 element system of the chinese (Earth, Metal, Water, Wood, Fire) set up in 4 tiers, and included a "Spirit master" for each element based loosely on various mythos, such as Ifrit for fire, a Dwarven king to represent metal, Undine over water, Luna for gravity, and so on... I've come up with a large list of aspects to connect to this immaginary world, and it will lead on to improvements in the story itself, which is more important to me, but having a medium to share it is greatly important too, as it must be appealing to the more so avarage person, but still involve some of the core spiritual truths that i value, and am yet also lacking true knowing.


Pardon my wall of text, but i felt maybe you could have used a distraction... i hope i could have been of some comfort, at least.