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May 10, 2010 15:37:14 GMT -5
Post by KG on May 10, 2010 15:37:14 GMT -5
Hi,
It's been very quiet around here. I check in every day though and so does Kata... and the rest of you have been checking the boards I know, but it seems we do not have a lot to say. I have been struggling with a few decisions IRL that shouldn't really be that hard. LOL I've found some peace playing farmville on facebook, and also messing with live journals. Also going to work on the weekends... still sniffing around for a second job. I hope you guys are well. I just wanted to say hi, and maybe if you drop by you could leave me a short message. Kind of like role call.
As for the astral stuff... well it seems quiet too. I had a little activity about a month ago. OH... and I got really upset last saturday because I saw the aftermath of a fatal train accident. Apparently someone was hit by a train. I empathed fatal head trauma. It was the first time I really put together that's what that feeling was. I'd had it a few times, when people close to me died, and once when I almost stepped out in front of a truck myself I felt it as well... and I know I had a brush with death. I had never put together that was what the empath was, but it might just be accidental death in general, but I feel like it's the brain trauma that I sense. I felt very upset after seeing that, and it kept me just really shaken for the rest of the day.
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May 10, 2010 19:38:32 GMT -5
Post by Del on May 10, 2010 19:38:32 GMT -5
Hi everyone!!!
So, I just purchased a one-way ticket to Santa Barbara, CA...and will be permanently living in San Luis Obispo, CA [which is a county north of Santa Barbara].
I don't have a job lined up...nothing seems to fit well with what I want to do so I have to create one. I did make a couple of connections, so I at least will have a few contacts once I get there.
Am working on getting something together and trying my best not to be so afraid. I find that when I really let go of control, things work out; it's just that it works out at the last minute...or what I perceive to be the last minute, whereas divinely it's perfect timing.
So I'll need all the luck I can get.
My finances are dwindling because of the Pilates training I am engaged in right now, but I am budgeted at best to last me to the end of this month and one month's rent, which means I have to hit the ground running once I get to California.
I have many skills and talents I need to put to work now; it's just maintaining my integrity and honoring my uniqueness all the way through without wavering or needing to please the world. It's hard, but doable.
It's also a HUGE risk I am taking, but I feel I have to take it. I can no longer stay in NYC and truly fulfill most of my purpose.. And so, wish me luck and I'll keep you all posted!!!!
Warmest and with much Love, Del
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May 11, 2010 0:27:26 GMT -5
Post by Kata Samoes on May 11, 2010 0:27:26 GMT -5
I see a Path for you Del, you should find it soon. Some helpful energies will await you when you get there.
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May 11, 2010 13:16:36 GMT -5
Post by KG on May 11, 2010 13:16:36 GMT -5
I think Del's courage and faith is amazing, and I believe it will pay off. You go girl!
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May 11, 2010 17:29:57 GMT -5
Post by ShutterBug on May 11, 2010 17:29:57 GMT -5
I wish you the best of luck in finding something in California, Del.
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May 13, 2010 12:06:56 GMT -5
Post by Del on May 13, 2010 12:06:56 GMT -5
Awww, thank you guys! You're supportive words and thoughts mean a lot. Especially when I am stepping into a huge unknown - new place, new people, new energy...starting anew entirely with very little in my pocket.
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May 13, 2010 13:51:44 GMT -5
Post by KG on May 13, 2010 13:51:44 GMT -5
We are proud of you for all you have accomplished. You are an inspiration to me right now. You don't even know how much.
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May 16, 2010 17:39:16 GMT -5
Post by Del on May 16, 2010 17:39:16 GMT -5
That brings a smile to my face; because as I count my days, I am always pondering what it is I have to offer in a class, or series of classes or workshops, wondering why it is I can't get a simple outline or wondering if people will 'get' anything from it. I had a simple conversation with a fellow pilates trainee last night as I dropped her home after we studied together; the simplicity of it was telling her how Korea was such a big deal in where I was now. And just from that, the questions she asked, brought great insight to herself. How do I get to simplicity with regards to interacting with other people?
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May 16, 2010 19:12:57 GMT -5
Post by KG on May 16, 2010 19:12:57 GMT -5
Simply interacting with other people? I think you'd just have to pick your people carefully. LOL
Seriously though, I'm not sure what you mean. I do know people can be complicated, and it takes skill with some people just to get them to tell you where the bathroom is, or some other trivial bit of information. Interaction with some people is like hiking on a mile of eggshells, just to get basic information. Other people are friendly and will talk ceaselessly if you ask them a simple question, and you have to pry yourself away, after an hour's worth of conversation... I think I am one of those, at least when I have the luxury of time. LOL
Some people on the other hand do give you the information you want right away, shoot you a friendly smile, then go on... is that what you mean by simple communication? If so these people are rare.
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May 16, 2010 22:16:38 GMT -5
Post by Del on May 16, 2010 22:16:38 GMT -5
Simply interacting with other people? I think you'd just have to pick your people carefully. LOL Seriously though, I'm not sure what you mean. I do know people can be complicated, and it takes skill with some people just to get them to tell you where the bathroom is, or some other trivial bit of information. Interaction with some people is like hiking on a mile of eggshells, just to get basic information. Other people are friendly and will talk ceaselessly if you ask them a simple question, and you have to pry yourself away, after an hour's worth of conversation... I think I am one of those, at least when I have the luxury of time. LOL Some people on the other hand do give you the information you want right away, shoot you a friendly smile, then go on... is that what you mean by simple communication? If so these people are rare. What I meant to say is, I trouble myself with trying to figure out how I will be able to communicate to people what it is I want to do through written word; yet when it comes to verbal communication I'm ok. it all flows so nicely.
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May 16, 2010 22:55:56 GMT -5
Post by KG on May 16, 2010 22:55:56 GMT -5
No wonder I didn't get it. I think you write well enough, but I have the opposite problem. I do so well with writing because I get a chance to think about it. With speaking... I'm usually just not quick enough. I can never think of what I should say, when it is time to say it. LOL Two hours later, I'm like... "you know earlier when you asked me ___, well i just figured out the answer to your question." Then I realize the person I was talking to has either walked, off, or with Bear... he's usually asleep by the time I think of what I wanted to say. LOL
For me it is just so much easier to write or type... especially type. My mind works better when I can cut and paste. LOL
What helps me when I write, is to just open a word doc and start typing everything I am thinking. I really don't give much thought to what I should say first or second. I just set it up in Paragraphs, and then shift them around, delete the ones I don't like and punch up the rest of them. Sometimes I make lists, but I feel free to delete the things on the list I don't like, or add new ones right in the middle like steps to something. I love word. Gary on the other hand just starts typing and it comes out perfect. IDK how he does that. Maybe he has an astral rough draft, but he just types... and you could try automatic writing yourself. A lot of people do that when they have writer's block. Just start typing and don't think about what you write at all. See what comes out. I've only met a few people who consistantly came out with "ktjojeowa[tjwjt" but it does happen. If so, just try again later. LOL
Kim
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May 16, 2010 23:02:29 GMT -5
Post by Del on May 16, 2010 23:02:29 GMT -5
It's very hard to keep faith in what I am about to do - run off to Cali with very little in my pocket.
At the same time, my youngest sister is trying raise funds to cover a summer tuition at a college she's looking to apply to. She got accepted to the summer program and now she needs to raise $5K.
I'd thought about asking family for some help with finances since I'm spending mine on transportation for my pilates certification, food for lunch, and paying off my bills for the month, but don't think it will work.
Talk about timing; I understand there's a reason for everything, yet I cannot fathom as to what the hell is in store or planned out for me. Asking for some help will be hard; since everyone is putting in to help my youngest sister...
I feel like crying because I don't know what's going to happen, but know that it's the right move to make.
Why is it always like this?
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May 16, 2010 23:16:56 GMT -5
Post by KG on May 16, 2010 23:16:56 GMT -5
I don't know how you do it. I mean I would never have the courage to travel across the country, or even cross the Mason Dixon. I am sure it will be challenging, but you're amazing. You went to Korea and came back in one piece on your own steam, and you will manage just fine in Cali. IF not your parents can swing a train ticket home I am sure. LOL I think you will be fine though. Apparently economic recovery is happening there. I have a friend who just moved there recently and landed a killer job. You have a wonderful education, in a field that should work much better there than on the east coast. God knows it wouldn't work in the South... or at least around here... but I know California is more progressive. When it comes to social change, or even fashion the South stays ten to twenty years behind the west coast... in some cases up to fourty years behind. LOL
Your sister should apply for a pell, and all the extra achievement stuff. I heard that the pell now works for summer classes too, though it didn't used to. She should look into it. If I remember correctly you got a loan, and if all else fails she could do the same. They make little loans too. I know a guy who's getting one for less than $10,000.
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May 20, 2010 17:17:51 GMT -5
Post by Del on May 20, 2010 17:17:51 GMT -5
Here's an update:
So the center for transformation that I was looking into starting my practice, accepted my application and so I pretty much have a space for two aspects of my practice [life coaching and soulcollage]. This is located in San Luis Obispo, which is where I plan to live.
The dance studio I made contact with has offered to give me free hours to do demo dance classes. This studio is locate din Santa Barbara [the county just beneath San Luis Obispo].
Now, the start up costs for my practice...will that's going to costs be $!k. So now I'm trying to figure out ways I can raise funds just to have the set up costs, NOT to include my business license and liability insurance, as well as the fee for filing a DBA {doing business under a name not my own].
TO top all of that off, my taxes weren't even filed; the accountant I used failed to tell me I had to send my stuff in. So 4 weeks later, here I am wondering what was taking so long, and the forms are in my folder. So I just sent that out.
I'm looking for a gym in the very least to start teaching pilates classes...or maybe the dance studio will just be the income generator I'll need...we shall see.
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May 20, 2010 22:30:15 GMT -5
Post by KG on May 20, 2010 22:30:15 GMT -5
It sounds like things are starting to fall into place. Coming up with 1K is a lot better than moving to Cali, with no promise of anything. Maybe you could set up some kind of performance or demonstration for a club, business, or organization there in NY, which would pay you. Anyway things are taking shape pretty fast really. Money is always a problem... or at least in my 50 years on this planet it's always been the main problem, but we always find ways to get it. Anyway kudos on getting everything set up. It sounds great.
Kim
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