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Post by lordazurath on Nov 5, 2007 17:13:18 GMT -5
yea.. one day.. if i can last that long
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Post by KG on Nov 5, 2007 22:39:18 GMT -5
The good thing about being young is that things change rather rapidly. Your life will have many changes and you will soon have the opportunity to make your own decisions. You will be able to choose what you want out of life and what you don't want.
Change is good, especially when you are over 18 and under 30. After you've made all those significant decisions... well then it depends... but chances are the most exciting and interesting times of your life await you starting in the next few years.
After you reach adulthood, your mom will still be important to you, but in a very different way. Overall she will gradually loose the ability to impact your life any more than you choose to let her. In the future she may offer advice, but increasingly it will be up to you to take her advice or not, and you can even choose not to tell her things... big things.
You are a very important person to the universe. You are unique... everyone is, and that is the secret. Your life has meaning, and if you work at it, it will have more meaning. Our society tries to tell us that there are millions just like us, and that one person just doesn't matter, but they are wrong! Individuals are really ALL that does matter. Crowds of people, special interest groups, demographic groups, various, economic, racial, and religious groups don't amount to anything, except for the fact they are made of individuals. No group is any better or more important, than its lowest ranking member. A group gathers together for strength, but where does that strength come from? From the power of each individual member.
The number of people involved in a group doesn't matter, as much as the drive and personal power of each member that counts. I'd rather have one good friend, than a dozen fair weather ones. I'd rather have a small company with a dozen capable, responsible, and motivated staff members, than a huge corporation whose 1000 employees who do nothing but collect a paycheck, and don't even show up for work half the time. Despite the thinking of many of these huge corporations, an employee is more than just a warm body. Despite the thinking of our government we are all more than our social security numbers.
Many times it will be up to YOU to make a difference, or just crawl back under your bed covers, and suck your thumb. Another secret is that we all have days when we would prefer the latter. However if we stick it out and make the decision to TRY, then eventually we will be glad we did. Someday you will have an opportunity to make a huge contribution to society... everyone does. Just don't miss yours. PS it may make you famous, and it may not... there are many ways to contribute. Because of the fact all individuals are vitally important, if you make a difference in the life of another individual then you have helped the whole world. I can guarantee that you will positively impact many people in your life, if you just hang in there. Be asured you have a purpose, and there are people whom you will meet who need you, and there are others who will help you. Those people will be waiting for you when you need them most, and when they need you the most. IT is your responsibility to be there when they do.
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Post by ShutterBug on Dec 30, 2007 20:48:42 GMT -5
Awh. Sweetie. I knew it was bad, but... I didn't know it has been like that for that long.... I'm so sad about your dad... seriously. If I could go back in time and change ANYTHING at all, it'd be that.
I hope you're not that sad anymore. You've told I make you happy. I don't want you to be sad like that ever again. OK?
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Post by lordazurath on Dec 30, 2007 20:56:51 GMT -5
i'm happy as long as i have you.. it was a lot worse than what i've put on the open forums, so as to not sound emo... lol..
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Post by llaul on Apr 28, 2008 16:13:21 GMT -5
well, the darkened clouds around the pain in my life, seem to be clearing up. I'm happy, for no reason for once. but there still seems to be something that is still weighing me down. I don't know what it is, but it feels like a spot on my heart that has just been voided. like I'm not entirely complete, and nothing I do will make it go away. My mom has lightened up, though she has developed Alzheimer's, and doesn't remember when she argues with me, or about what. I've got an amazing girlfriend now. though, I would have wished that different. I still really have no sense of true family, but I realized I have a few "small" families about. I have an awesome job, and make decent money. I've found out, I'm going to go to UVA college at Wise when I get out of high school. for practically nothing. *thumbs up*
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Post by llaul on May 4, 2008 10:23:35 GMT -5
its hard... to do the right thing.. and no matter what it is, i can still do it. even if it tears me open, and spills out my soul on the ground. i can still do it. but now i'm too close to the edge, and the water below is to warm. and i think what hurts the most.. is no one will ever know how much i try to help everyone.. how much i did love.. F**k this, i'm tired of my job. when do I get to go away forever?
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Post by ShutterBug on May 5, 2008 14:23:54 GMT -5
I'm so sorry. You have NO idea how sorry i am... please forgive me...
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Post by ~Sephity~ on May 5, 2008 20:39:41 GMT -5
please not here, we do not need personal affairs this public, take it to PM please, we don't need a fight or argument busting out, atleast not on open board.
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Post by ShutterBug on May 5, 2008 20:44:54 GMT -5
... it's not a fight/arguement... it's me feeling like a pos because I left.
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Post by llaul on May 5, 2008 21:24:42 GMT -5
oh, shut up, seriously. god damn, chill for once in your life. you're one of the few people who SHOULD understand the situation. if you want to be a prick, let's not do it public, ok? and, btw, stop with the god damned dirty looks at school i'm tired of it.
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Post by KilKid on Sept 27, 2009 21:08:41 GMT -5
I feel that I should close this topic now with a positive light...
My last birthday, I was kicked out of the house permanently. I got my own place and a fulltime job. I have since moved on to college, (UVA-Wise) and have a fairly decent relationship with my mother. And I'm engaged now. (yay!, I think?)
I've been much happier without living with my mom, and now miss having my own place. It was great, and I never had any problems, (other than the door falling off the heges. heh, Fixed it tho).
I have not had any contact with the astral or anything regarding it for that matter. I feel as though I have lost my abilities. But I am sure with a little training and practice I can return to the groove of things. Although what has still been happening to me is the lycanthropy thing.. but anyway...
I'm happy, alive, and doing well.
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Post by KG on Sept 28, 2009 1:18:27 GMT -5
This is wonderful news!!! College, and you are engaged!!! Already had the experience of supporting yourself, and managed just fine. That is so cool. Sounds like a recipe for success.
Sometimes as we mature our awareness changes, and goes to different levels. I have had the sensation of 'loosing my abilities' many times, but really it has just gone to higher levels and frequencies. There are many worlds, and many levels of the astral and spiritual worlds. You were aware of one of the first ones I was aware of, and now you don't see that... but chances are you will soon become aware of higher levels, and after that becomes firmly established you will again become aware of the level you have always been aware of, at least that is how it happened with me. After that you will learn to switch awarenesses, like changing the channel on a TV, but still each time you gain a significant awareness, you might find yourself feeling like you loose awareness for a while... If you need it though, it is there. I hope that you find one of the brighter more positive worlds, like heaven or something like Ash's world.
Really I'd recomend that you pray, meditate, and seek heaven, because that is a really powerful connection to have, and it goes with your general disposition. Or you could try linking people to see their worlds. Either way keep your positive attitude, and you will get a positive world to play in soon enough. IT may not be one that overlaps your physical life though. You may gain awareness on another plain. There is no telling where you could end up, but at any rate, your past awareness, was on the overlapping plain... so you may get one that is elsewhere. You might become aware of angels overlapping this plain, that was my next level of awareness after the first... but at any rate you are just growing, not loosing anything.
Plus you have been really busy in the physical world apparently, and that usually causes changes. Sometimes we are pre-occupied with natural things, and feel we've lost vision, just because we don't have time to look, but often that is when we are growing the most. If you need it, it will be there, but in the meantime just know that you are growing and learning, in this world and in the others.
Well that is the important thing. Glad you are doing well.
Kim
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